waste heat

Chapter 32

Cheng Yan didn't dare to speculate on the relationship between the two. The Tang Jiale he knew was not that kind, but he couldn't explain their deep friendship, so he chose to shut up.

Song Yu said, "What if it's me?"

Cheng Yan raised his head: "It's you?"

Song Yu's eyes were serious, he stared at Cheng Yan and said, "If I treat you like this, how would you understand?"

It's not that Song Yu never treated him like this, it's just that sometimes Song Yu was too kind to him, which made Cheng Yan blindly confident, thinking that he might also like her, and that there was a possibility of development between them, so he didn't Hold back, make such a bold move, actually?Song Yu's kindness to him and the intimacy he did by rejecting him did not delay at all.

Cheng Yan didn't want to be affectionate anymore, and gave an answer that he didn't know how much he weighed. He said fair and politely: "Good friend, how can I understand?"

Song Yu was slightly disappointed: "That's all?"

Cheng Yan said: "What else can there be, between two boys... right."

When he said this, he couldn't even convince himself. If everything hadn't been exposed, and his liking could be hidden, there wouldn't be such an embarrassing situation. But he had already revealed it, and if he used this answer to prevaricate, no matter how false it sounded , but he would rather Song Yu think his answer was fake than Song Yu think he was shameless.

Song Yu was silent for a while, and didn't continue to make things difficult for him. Sanhu interjected. He didn't know the tricks of the two, and asked, "Where are you going?"

Song Yu stared at Cheng Yan, refusing to let him go, "I don't know."

Sanhu said, "Aren't you going to practice?"

Song Yu: "I won't go."

Cheng Yan raised his head and found that Song Yu was staring at him. He felt even more guilty. He looked away. He didn't want to talk about any emotional topics with Song Yu now. They are not suitable for each other. It is best not to mention it forever. Get back a little bit of comfort and don't just destroy it.

Cheng Yan suggested: "Let's go eat, I'm a little hungry."

Song Yu said uncooperatively, "It's only past three o'clock."

Cheng Yan said ah, the words have been spoken, continue to lie, do whatever you want, don't stare like this, Song Yu's staring at him made him feel nervous, he couldn't stand his ground, he just wanted to quickly find something to divert his attention , "But I'm hungry, I didn't eat much at noon."

He also drank fish soup, ate a bowl of rice, and he couldn't eat much of the sumptuous Chinese meal. Cheng Yan had no choice but to go out, unable to control himself.

Song Yu said: "Okay, let's go eat then."

Cheng Yan raised his head and looked at Song Yu's eyes. He always felt that something was wrong, and it was clearly a sense of conspiracy of "following the plan".

Sure enough, they arrived at a ramen restaurant. Song Yu sat across from him and ordered a bowl of beef noodles. He didn't eat it, but looked at Cheng Yan and said, "Eat it, and we'll talk after we finish eating."

The table was full of a large bowl of beef noodles, and Cheng Yan had no way to start. There were not a few pieces of beef, but there were quite a lot of noodles. The large portion of beef noodles exuded a hot aroma, but it couldn't arouse Cheng Yan's appetite at all. A serving of beef noodles is a bit nauseating, and I feel full just looking at it.

He ate so much at noon, how could he finish such a large portion of beef noodles, he raised his chopsticks, wanted to cry, looked at Song Yu and said, "You don't want to eat?"

"I'm not hungry." After finishing speaking, Song Yu stood up, took out two bottles of water from the refrigerator, put them in front of Cheng Yan, and opened one by himself, "You said you were hungry, just eat, and leave me alone."

Cheng Yan now has the urge to slap himself to death, he has spoken out, and shown his face, how can he go back on his word now?

Holding the chopsticks, Cheng Yan started to eat. The people at the tables next to him were all cooking. There were not many people, and those who got to eat after three o'clock were all too busy and hungry, but Cheng Yan was not. He was the only one. An idiot who says he's hungry when he's full.

Help.

Cheng Yan felt a little full after taking a few mouthfuls, and he hadn't finished digesting the lunch, but Song Yu looked at him and he couldn't help it. He raised his head from time to time and found that Song Yu was looking at his phone, so he found a chance to breathe, eat Take a break for a while.

"Master Song..." Cheng Yan called out aggrievedly.

Song Yu raised his eyes, his sharp eyes were provocative, and there was a hint of playfulness in his eyes, waiting for Cheng Yan's next sentence to beg for mercy.

Cheng Yan ghostly said: "Share you a little."

Song Yu asked sharply, "Aren't you hungry?"

Cheng Yan said: "I can't finish eating, I don't have that much appetite."

Song Yu didn't take it seriously: "Not much, aren't you hungry? I'm still worried that it's not enough, should I order two more sesame seed cakes for you?"

As soon as Cheng Yan closed his eyes, his heart became completely clear. Isn't this obvious enough?Song Yu knew, definitely knew.

He covered the bowl with his chopsticks, and confessed, "What about me... I just said it casually."

Song Yu didn't interrupt, and let him continue to admit his guilt.

Cheng Yan was defeated, "Okay, I'm sorry, I feel, feel..."

He hesitated for a long time, but did not say a good word.

Song Yu stood up, went to buy the bill, turned to him and said, "Let's go."

Cheng Yan looked at the beef noodles, "This noodle..."

Song Yu said: "Continue if you can eat it."

Cheng Yan quickly stood up, wiped his mouth with a paper towel, followed behind Song Yu and said, "Don't eat, I'm full."

He was let go.

After coming out, Cheng Yan still felt bad, followed Song Yu silently, and said behind him: "Don't be angry."

When he was with Song Yu, Song Yu seldom got angry. He remembered almost nothing, but Cheng Yan could feel that it would be a terrible thing for Song Yu to get angry, and he didn't allow the situation to continue to get serious.

"I'm not angry," Song Yu said, "I just let you know that you have to think carefully."

Cheng Yan said in a low voice, "I'm not angry yet..."

"Is this called anger?" Song Yu said, "Are you underestimating me?"

"No," Cheng Yan said, "Oh, I just don't want to be so embarrassing, you and I... It's not good in the first place, why do we have to talk about those unhappy topics."

"When did we get sick?" Song Yu grasped the point and his expression became serious.

Cheng Yan didn't notice it, and said sincerely: "Is it okay? Did we contact you during the month you left? Did you come to see me after you came back? And when we met at school...you didn't talk to me. "

When they met, Cheng Yan was on the runway and Song Yu was beside the runway. He just saw him and lost his mind, and then fell and hurt himself. Not only Cheng Yan found Song Yu, but Song Yu also saw him, but he didn't Say a word to him, say hello, not even a simple support and cheer. He knew that their relationship would be awkward at that time. He didn't expect him to cheer him up or say some encouraging words. He just wanted a sentence "Long time no see" or a simple "Cheng Yan" is enough.

Song Yu was stopped by the rhetorical question, and he didn't speak for a long time. After a while, he said in Cheng Yan's grievance: "Sorry, I thought you didn't want to talk to me."

He and Cheng Yan get along with each other most of the time. Cheng Yan is very enthusiastic about him, and it will never be Song Yu's turn to take the initiative to find him. Cheng Yan will contact him. Every movie, every event, Every meal starts because of Cheng Yan, their relationship is gradually progressing through initiative and cooperation, Song Yu only cooperates, while Cheng Yan takes the initiative.

Therefore, for people who are used to cooperation, after losing the initiative, Song Yu has to understand that the other party is unwilling, unwilling to contact him, pay attention to him, and communicate with him again. That day when the abandoned factory was fighting, he saw him, and he was far away. Watching, watching Cheng Yan, who is always full of enthusiasm, being indifferent to him for the first time, alienating him for the first time, that feeling is still lingering in my heart now, and it will not dissipate for a long time.

An uncomfortable feeling, he didn't want to recall it.

The topic got deeper and deeper. This was not their purpose. Cheng Yan felt a little comforted when he heard Song Yu's words. He said pitifully, "I have no right to ignore you."

These words sounded like accusations, but also like grievances. No matter what, Song Yu felt uncomfortable. He forced a smile and said, "You will dare in the future."

Cheng Yan raised his head and said blankly, "What do you mean?"

Song Yu shook his head and said, "Cheng Yan, let's talk about something serious."

Cheng Yan nodded.

Song Yu said, "Can we make up?"

Cheng Yan frowned: "Aren't we already reconciled?" Isn't this reconciliation?They've been so close recently, he always thought they were reconciled.

Song Yu said: "I mean complete reconciliation, as before, if you want to call me, you can tell me if you need me, or... send me a message if you have anything to do, and share those little things .”

Cheng Yan observed every subtle expression of Song Yu, he wanted to know what kind of psychology he is now, why he asked so much, did he want to continue to be friends with him, or...forgive him for what he didn't say but has already exposed emotion.

Cheng Yan's hesitation now is tormenting Song Yu. If he doesn't speak, the people in front of him will become more nervous. Their relationship is already on the verge of danger, but whenever Cheng Yan shakes his head, this is their last side.

They each have their own speculations and worries, it is easy to say it, it is great to be able to restrain it, Cheng Yan also wants to lose his temper once, but he is not qualified to do so, Song Yu does not owe him anything, lovers are not successful, friends are still good can do.

"I don't want to disturb you." Cheng Yan didn't answer accurately, and gave such an explanation after hesitation.

If you don't like it, aren't those things just disturbing?

He had wishful thinking, so he didn't want to be sentimental anymore. He had clearly responded to his feelings. Everything he did now, Cheng Yan had to consider whether he had exceeded the rules.

"Interruption?" Song Yu showed displeasure, and asked, "Why do you think this is an interruption to me?"

Cheng Yan paused: "Isn't it?"

Song Yu stared at the face in front of him, he wanted to see his dimples, but it was not clear when he was not smiling, Song Yu could only stare at the faintly dimpled cheek, and said: "What I would like to do with you is I do it because I like it."

Cheng Yan raised his face, Song Yu's eyebrows were picturesque, his eyes were different from his guilty conscience, and he said deeply: "I never force myself to stay with people I don't like."

Cheng Yan opened his mouth slightly, his eyes were not clear, and his ears seemed to have some hearing impairment, so it was difficult for him to understand what Song Yu meant, or he dared not understand without authorization.

Song Yu's voice was still clear, his eyes were hot, and he was extremely honest: "I will not make things difficult for myself, and do things I don't like with people I don't like."

Cheng Yan lowered his head hastily, his heart was pounding, he could clearly feel his disappointment, the violent heartbeat was too rampant, Cheng Yan's ears were slightly red, he was still calmer than when he kissed him that day, he How do you understand now?Song Yu didn't hate him, nor did he hate his performance that day?

So what was that time he kissed him?It's... just a small accident, can it pass?If he hated him, it would be impossible for him to say these things to him, and to continue to communicate with him.

If Song Yu hadn't stood in front of him now, Cheng Yan would have suppressed his heartbeat. He didn't do such a revealing act. He wanted to raise his eyes to look at Song Yu, and then see what his eyes were trying to express, but He couldn't do it, he was too timid, he was afraid that his embarrassment would be seen, and his heartbeat would be overheard.

Please, fuck it, stop it.

What Song Yu said, you just jumped like this.

Cheng Yan struggled with his heart for a while, he turned around, squatted down, his inexplicable behavior made Song Yu have to ask.

"what happened?"

Cheng Yan turned his head away and said in a low voice, "No, I'm tired from standing."

His lies are not clever at all.

Song Yu squatted down next to him, the two of them just stood by the curb, Cheng Yan looked to the other side, Song Yu looked at him, his angle of view could only see Cheng Yan's hair, for some reason, his hands suddenly itched, He twirled his five fingers and raised them unconsciously, but he reacted to this move in time, held down his wrist with the other hand, twisted it forcibly, and controlled this even more inexplicable move. Song Yu said: "You really hate me so much?"

Cheng Yan said: "What, no one hates you."

He can't say whether he hates it or not, the word is too deep for him to use.

"Then I haven't contacted you for a month," Song Yu's voice sounded in the back of his head, "Have you ever thought about me?"

My mind is full of you, have I ever thought about you, why did I pass by in self-doubt and annoyance that month, Cheng Yan dare not recall, he concealed and said: "No, what do I miss you."

Song Yu didn't speak anymore.

Cheng Yan can't calm down now, and Song Yu's being next to him makes him think about it even more. He was teased like this by a few words, so it's okay if they are really together?How can I be worthless?

Cheng Yan stood up and hurriedly said: "Then what, I'm leaving first, I need to calm down... No, go home for a while."

Song Yu looked up at him, but didn't stand up, and said, "Think carefully."

Cheng Yan seemed to hear a little smile, he turned his head back boldly, and bumped into Song Yu's smiling eyes, it was terrible, he saw Song Yu's face once and for all, Cheng Yan hurriedly retracted his gaze, and left quickly .

Song Yu just stared at him from behind, a little rabbit crossing the road looked left and right, his back was bleak, his speech was confused, and he behaved very nicely.

If his ears were redder, he would look more like a rabbit.

"Song Yu?"

A shout came from one side, Song Yu turned his head and saw Han Chengyu, beside him was another rabbit with reddish ears, he didn't know what Han Chengyu was doing, Tang Jiale followed him and looked at him.

"Why haven't you left yet?" Han Chengyu came over.

Song Yu was having dinner not far from their shop, and bumped into him again. He stood up and said, "Getting ready."

"Why are you looking so engrossed?" Han Chengyu followed his gaze, but found nothing, "Where's the child?"

Song Yu said, "What child?"

Han Chengyu: "Cheng Yan."

Song Yu said, "Go home."

Han Chengyu didn't know why he came to this conclusion: "Have you bullied others?"

Song Yu didn't admit it: "Why did I bully him?"

Han Chengyu has reason and evidence: "I haven't contacted him for so long, now I have a chance, can you do nothing?"

"You think I'm you?" Song Yu looked at Tang Jiale with an unnatural expression, "Are you the one who bullies others?"

Han Chengyu raised his hand, covered Tang Jiale's head, inserted his five fingers into Tang Jiale's hair, made a movement that Song Yu instinctively did just now, and said boldly: "I admit it."

Tang Jiale raised his hand, knocked off Han Chengyu, dodged a little, and warned him with his eyes, Han Chengyu laughed and didn't speak again.

Cheng Yan was sitting on the bus, not knowing how to tell Zhao Yibai about it.

Zhao Yibai didn't let him associate with Song Yu anymore, he was afraid that he would be hurt again, and would suffer from Song Yu, but despite that kind of emotion, he still likes Song Yu very much, I'm sorry, he is really worthless, but he is I can't help it, he likes Song Yu, he just likes it very much...

Cheng Yan didn't make excuses for his heartbeat, Song Yu's charm was too great, he couldn't resist this kind of sincerity, the rhetoric of the past was forgotten, Song Yu hooked his fingers at him, and he wanted to get into his arms up.

Cheng Yan tugged at his hair, he is not calm now, he can't, he can't make a decision, wait for him to wake up, and reply him later.

The bus stopped and went, and some figures came up one after another. After four o'clock, there were elementary school children getting on the bus, as well as aunts who bought vegetables, and parents who picked up the children. The seats were gradually full. Sitting directly in front of Cheng Yan was a A young couple.

The girl was carrying a bag with an ice cream in her hand, while the boy was standing aside, holding on to the armrest, without sitting down.

"Sit down." The girl said.

"Just three stops, we'll be there soon, don't sit down." The boy was leaning on the armrest, playing with his mobile phone, not knowing what he looked like, and wearing a mask.

"Come." The girl raised her hand and handed over the ice cream. The boy said no, but the girl said coquettishly, "Come on, I can't finish it. Do you dislike me?"

As soon as he heard this, the desire to survive came. The boy quickly took off his mask and took a bite of the ice cream. During this process, he noticed the sharp gaze, raised his eyes, and looked over his girlfriend's shoulders, straight The ground meets Cheng Yan's eyes.

Being discovered, Cheng Yan turned his head away in embarrassment. He was sitting in the back row, and the seat was not full. There were two other young people besides him, but he was the only one who was staring at the young couple's face while others were playing with their mobile phones. ambiguous.

The girl noticed her boyfriend's gaze and turned her head. Cheng Yan looked like a criminal suspect. He pretended to play with his mobile phone and heard the girl say, "What are you looking at?"

Boyfriend said: "Nothing."

Cheng Yan was let go.

Just at this moment, someone called his name loudly: "Cheng Yan!"

Cheng Yan raised his head and saw Shen Yun and a few girls in his class.

Shen Yun and her sisters came back, Shen Yun was not stage fright, she could chat anywhere, and said, "Why are you here, why did you go?"

Shen Yun looked him up and down, and before Cheng Yan could explain, she said, "Going to play?"

"Ah."

"Who did you make an appointment with?" Shen Yun said, "Zhang Zihao and the others have no arrangements today, didn't they go online, and Zhao Yibai hasn't come these days."

"I didn't practice with them, I practiced by myself." Cheng Yan didn't report Song Yu's name, Song Yu was too popular in their school, he didn't want to cause a commotion.

"Oh, what's the point of practicing by yourself," Shen Yun said, "Next time I will learn basketball and play with you."

Cheng Yan couldn't help laughing: "You? I'll graduate after you practice."

"Just kidding, I'm talented. Didn't I pass in the physical education class last time? The teacher even praised me." Shen Yun said proudly.

Several girls found seats and sat down one after another. Shen Yun sat next to Cheng Yan in the aisle. Cheng Yan looked at the girls carrying bags and asked, "What about shopping? Big bags and small bags."

"Go shopping, I bought a pair of shoes," Shen Yun raised her foot and kicked the shoebox next to her feet, "Mary Jane's, with a skirt."

Cheng Yan was as confused about this as she was about lipstick, "What is Mary Jane?"

"A style of shoes," said Chen Ziyi who was sitting behind, "show him out."

Cheng Yan was really curious, and Shen Yun was also generous, so he took it out and showed it to him, "Here, that's it."

Cheng Yan looked at the white thick-soled Mary Jane, with a strap on the upper, which looked quite delicate and a little artistic, Cheng Yan said, "Isn't it heavy?"

"It's not heavy, it's only three centimeters." Shen Yun put the shoes back.

Three centimeters...not heavy?

Cheng Yan and the others all wear flat shoes. He has never worn height-increasing shoes at his height. He is used to playing golf and doesn't like those inconvenient decorations. He said, "It's better to wear canvas shoes."

"Let's say you're a straight man," Shen Yun said, "Canvas shoes don't look good with a skirt. Oh, you don't understand even if I tell you. Anyway, you can learn more."

"I know why these are, but I don't wear them."

"For future girlfriends."

girlfriend?Straight man?Shen Yun's words touched his heart, and Cheng Yan couldn't help but talk back, he couldn't just say that he likes boys on the bus.

Thanks to Shen Yun and the others, Cheng Yan had already forgotten the embarrassment of being caught by the young couple. He looked up again, and the couple was about to get off the car. The boy looked back at him when he got off the car, and Cheng Yan frowned. , It's strange, he always feels uncomfortable with this look.

What the hell?

"What are you looking at?" Shen Yun asked.

Cheng Yan withdrew his gaze: "No."

Shen Yun said: "This is for you."

A keychain was stuffed in Cheng Yan's hand, with a pink pig hanging on it, he looked at Shen Yun: "Why give me this?"

"Give it to you," Shen Yun said, "I just bought two of them, and I'll give you one more."

"Why buy two?"

"It looks good," Shen Yun said in a coquettish voice, "How cute is the pig."

Chen Ziyi was laughing from behind, Cheng Yan didn't know what she was laughing at, and looked at her, Chen Ziyi said, "Just keep it."

Cheng Yan also took it, and he was generously given it to him, so he was not restrained, he held it in his hand and said, "Then I'll take it."

"Cover me from now on."

"Must have to." Cheng Yan and Shen Yun chatted one after another, and the two laughed together after speaking, the carriage was filled with youthful atmosphere.

When he was about to get out of the car, Cheng Yan suddenly had a thought. He hadn't made a decision yet and needed outside interference. He wanted to ask other people's opinions before asking Zhao Yibai, so he said abruptly, "Shen Yun, Let me ask you a question."

Shen Yun said, "Brother, tell me."

Cheng Yan laughed: "Little sister, don't do this."

Shen Yun stopped joking with him and asked him to ask.

Cheng Yan said: "That's... If you confess your love to someone, and he neither agrees nor refuses, and even proposes to continue with you, what do you think... what does he mean?"

"Huh? Who did you confess to?"

"I'm just asking, not me." Cheng Yan explained hastily.

Shen Yun said: "Then what you said is not right. What do you mean by not refusing or agreeing? The other party didn't reply after confessing? How is this possible?"

"It's just..." Cheng Yan said in words: "I didn't give you a clear answer."

"Is that a confession or not?"

"It doesn't count..." Cheng Yan didn't know whether it counted or not. He said it was a confession, but he didn't say it. If he didn't, he made an ambiguous gesture.

"I don't understand." Shen Yun was confused. She can't be blamed, it's because Cheng Yan's expression is wrong, "Please explain clearly."

Immediately arrived at the site, Cheng Yan straightened his mind and said: "Don't think too deeply, probably he knew what I meant, but he didn't give me an answer, and after a while, he suddenly said that he wanted me to keep in touch with him, What do you mean by him?"

Chen Ziyi at the back understood it, and said, "There must be some drama."

"Is there a show?" Cheng Yan turned around.

Chen Ziyi was eating a lollipop, and the spiritual mentor usually gave Cheng Yan a clear answer, "Of course there is a joke. If I don't like you, why should I associate with you?"

Shen Yun also nodded in agreement.

Cheng Yan's eyes were full of unconfidence: "But if he really likes me, why doesn't he agree..."

With sharp eyes, Shen Yun asked sharply, "Who did you confess your love to?"

Cheng Yan raised his head and met Shen Yun's scrutinizing gaze. He said, "I won't tell you."

"It really is you!" Shen Yun surrounded her, "Tell me, hurry up, I swear I won't tell anyone, not even Chen Ziyi."

Chen Ziyi from behind: "..."

Shen Yun's heart of gossip is blazing. In youth, who do you like and who likes you are topics and fun that will never go out of date.

"Cheng Yanyan, tell me, I have a strong mouth..." Shen Yun was very curious, who could refuse Cheng Yan, how ruthless is the other party who can fight so well in the face of their class.

"No way." Cheng Yan and Shen Yun began to argue. Once the two of them get entangled, they will not be able to stop for a while. The main reason is that Shen Yun is more obsessive. Fortunately, Cheng Yan got off the car quickly when he arrived at the stop, and then escaped. Passed a catastrophe.

After getting off the car, no one bothered, Cheng Yan's thoughts gradually became clearer, Shen Yun and Chen Ziyi's suggestions could not be used as a reference, they only listened to the general idea, and they didn't know what the relationship between Song Yu and him was.

Song Yu likes him, so he is willing to continue to communicate with him.

So whether this liking is based on the relationship between friends or the heartbeat of lovers, he still doesn't know.

No one could give him the answer, but he no longer dared to be sentimental.

Cheng Yan's head is going to explode, why is it so complicated, he now regrets that he exposed his emotions prematurely, and now he is completely at a disadvantage.

Coincidentally, Song Yu contacted him at this time.

Ask him if he is home.

Cheng Yan glanced at the phone and quickly typed: Do you like me or not...

He felt it was too reckless to type it out, so he deleted it, and only replied with two short words: Arrived.

When Cheng Yan returned home, he was not in high spirits and lowered his head. The time on the road did not allow him to stabilize his mood.

As soon as he entered the door, he heard a commotion. He pushed the door shut, raised his eyes, and saw his mother in the living room.

Cheng Ma was squatting in front of a big cardboard box, unpacking it, and holding a pair of large scissors in her hand. Cheng Yan didn't know what it was, and asked, "Mom, what are you doing?"

Cheng's mother turned her head, gave him a look, and said, "Your father bought a refrigerator and just got it up."

Cheng Yan asked curiously: "Our refrigerator is broken?"

Cheng's mother said, "It's not cooling very much, you come here to help."

Cheng Yan walked over, continued his fucking work, and unpacked it. It was a three-layer double-door refrigerator, much larger than the original one. The front was red. It had just been packaged. It was brand new and beautiful. He and his mother made it together. It took a while to connect to the power.

"Where's the original one?" Cheng Yan put the refrigerator in the previous refrigerator position.

"I asked someone to take it away. I bought this with extra money. Is the power plugged in?" Cheng Ma opened the door of the refrigerator and began to move the ingredients on the table into it.

Dad didn't come back yet, Cheng Yan helped to clean up together, there were a lot of fresh ingredients, his mother went to buy again, Cheng Yan took the things and sorted them, and placed them according to his mother's requirements.

Seeing Cheng Yan's clothes, Cheng's mother asked, "Do you have a competition today?"

Cheng Yan said: "No, the training is over."

Cheng Ma: "Training?"

Cheng Yan said: "Well, the school team tryout is coming soon."

Cheng Ma laughed: "You are really persistent."

Cheng Yan was surrounded by air-conditioning, and the lower layer was filled with meat, dumplings, glutinous rice balls, and a lot of unopened ones. He arranged them one by one, "Then what should I do?"

Cheng Ma sighed: "You're not a foodie, why do you have to go in?"

Cheng Yan raised his head, held the quick-frozen dumplings and asked, "Why do you say that?"

Cheng Ma has reason and evidence: "Isn't it? You have been playing basketball for so long, why can't you get in now? It's a technical problem, and it's also a talent problem. If someone else goes in at this time, it means they eat this food. What are you messing with?" ?”

Cheng Yan stood up and said in disapproval: "I didn't take it seriously before, but now I want to eat this meal, and I'm working hard to improve my game skills."

"You mean, you want to enter the CBA in the future and be a professional, like Song Yu?"

Cheng Yan clenched his fists: "Can't you?"

Cheng Ma shook her head: "Come on, I compare you with Song Yu every day, do you really compare yourself with others? Many things in this world are about talent, I just want to motivate you, not to stimulate you, basketball or something, just for fun. Forget it, you never said you were going this way."

"Then I've changed my mind now. I want to take this path. I don't have talent, but many people don't have talent. It doesn't mean that you can't take this path without talent."

"Then let me ask you." Cheng's mother is also an intellectual, has her own ideas, and has more experience. She asked sharply: "Why did you go this way? Because you like basketball? Or do you think this is a way out? Shine on this road? Or what is your goal? How far will you go, small achievements or professional players playing big games?"

His mother asked the same question as Song Yu, Cheng Yan couldn't answer quickly, he said guiltyly: "I don't have such a high goal, I haven't thought about the specific one yet..."

Cheng's mother spread her hands: "Look, you are very confused and not firm at all. How can you succeed?"

Cheng Yan has nothing to say, when did he decide to take this path?After getting acquainted with Song Yu, after Song Yu played the game, after knowing Song Yu's ideal...

Before that, he had always been confused.

Cheng Yan stood on the side, slightly lost in thought. Dad came back at this time, disturbed Cheng Yan's thoughts, and said: "It's here so soon, is it delivered by someone else?"

"They brought it up, I can't do anything with it," Cheng's mother said.

Dad Cheng came over, took off his coat, came to watch the new refrigerator, nodded with satisfaction, and then looked at Cheng Yan beside him in a daze, "Your kid has another game today?"

Cheng Yan raised his face.

Cheng's father narrowed his eyes: "This face is full of depression, and he was abused by others again?"

Cheng Yanhuan raised his hands and said helplessly, "Dad, sometimes it's not that I want to be a rebellious son."

Director Cheng was about to teach the brat a lesson, so Cheng Yan ran away quickly, confessed a few words, corrected his name, and hid back in the room.

His mother was cooking outside, and he was sitting in front of the computer desk, propping his chin, his mind was full of his mother's words, and Song Yu's, the exact same questions overlapped together.

About his future life path.

Cheng Yan has never carefully considered what he will do in the future, how far he will go, and what will happen after he enters the school team?What should I do if I don't get in?In fact, he was so persistent in wanting to join the school team. It was he who agreed to Song Yu, and he made an appointment with Song Yu. He would definitely join and follow in his footsteps.

The two once talked about their ideals. Song Yu said that his ideal was to be a professional player. In the future, he would be able to step onto a bigger stage, participate in bigger games, and pursue his passionate basketball dream. After settling down, it is to chase dreams with him.

But... what if he really can't catch up with Song Yu?

Cheng Yan was full of enthusiasm before, and he didn't think about this problem carefully. He was blindly confident that hard work would definitely pay off, but Song Yu is not a mediocre person, can he keep up?Always?

Sighing, Cheng Yan spread out his hands, holding a pink pig keychain, and he began to meditate on the key.

He can't even get into the school team now, and he is still a thousand miles away. How can he chase him.

No, you can't be so pessimistic, you can't just give up lightly like this, what's wrong with this, he hasn't made much action yet, and he was overwhelmed by a few words?Shaken?This is not the Cheng Yan who boldly promised Song Yu to be with him back then.

Cheng Yan clenched the keychain tightly and became active again, just when Song Yu called him.

Cheng Yan hesitated for a moment, and pressed the answer button.

"Have you considered it?" Song Yu got straight to the point, without saying a word of nonsense, and it has been a few hours.

Cheng Yan paused and said, "How can you ask for debt like this?"

Song Yu laughed lowly over there, but it was a pity that Cheng Yan couldn't see it. He liked seeing Song Yu smile the most, and he could only imagine it through the receiver.

Song Yu said: "Cheng Yan, I care about you very much."

Cheng Yan didn't speak for a long time, he held the keychain tightly in his hand, his ears were soft, and he couldn't hear what Song Yu had to say. Such provocative words could easily shake his unsteady will. Cheng Yan said: "Are you really Can you still accept me?"

Cheng Yan's own voice echoed in the room, the phone was coldly pressed against the warm ear, his eyes were a little nervous, and his voice trembled a little.

"I never rejected you, but I got used to you a little bit. I didn't have a very happy life without contact."

No matter whether Song Yu rejected him or not, Cheng Yan heard that he didn't want to talk about feelings, he didn't understand, Song Yu just didn't want to answer him directly, maybe he had his own considerations, maybe he wanted him as a friend, He didn't want to develop into a lover, Cheng Yan really wanted to ask directly, but Song Yu should have his scruples if he avoided talking about it, he didn't want to force people too much, it's good to be a friend first.

"Well," Cheng Yan retracted his arms, the keyboard on the computer desk was dusty, and he gently wiped it away, "Then let's... let's do this first."

Let's be friends first, if you need me, I am willing to be your friend.If you don't want me to be your lover, then I'll settle for the next best thing.

There are still many possibilities in life, and there are still many changes in the future. Song Yu's future is bright, and now he is in the graduation season, and he is at the fork in his life. After becoming a professional player, wait until they are older and their thinking is more mature, then they will have a good talk.

There was no sound from the receiver, Cheng Yan was about to hang up, Song Yu called him, Cheng Yan stopped his hand in time, a warm tone came from the phone, as if Song Yu was whispering in his ear, "Cheng Yan, thank you. "

This thank you came suddenly, Cheng Yan was stunned for a moment, then smiled lightly, he let out a breath, and said to the person on the other end of the phone with relief: "I don't want to force you, in fact, except for that kind of relationship... I I need a friend like you too."