You chased me back

Chapter 36 Chapter 34

After eating the noodles, Xiang Huailin left before his father got up.He has no reason to quarrel with the old man now, but he doesn't want to be laughed at by him either.Also, never got used to this home.

When Xiang Huailin woke up, he found that his eyes were swollen badly, so he decided not to go to the company.I wanted to go straight back to the apartment in the urban area, but then I thought about it, no one there had to solve the meal by myself, so I turned around and went to Li Yuxina.Just as Xiang Huailin arrived at the door, he happened to catch up with Li Yuxi going out.When Li Yuxi opened the door and saw Xiang Huailin, his eyes widened in surprise:

"Brother Huailin! Why are you here!"

Xiang Huailin said disdainfully: "Crazy, this is not my home." He walked in the door on his own.

Li Yuxi: "..." You can't tell what's going on here...

Li Yuxi also noticed that Xiang Huailin's eyes were a little swollen, and he was a little worried:

"Brother...don't you go to work today?"

"Well, not going."

"Oh, you... all right..."

Xiang Huailin interrupted him: "Don't bother me, hurry up and get to your shift..." After saying that, he lay down on the bed without even changing his clothes, and closed his eyes tiredly.

Li Yuxi had no choice but to nod, and was about to go out when he heard Xiang Huailin's lazy voice:

"Come back at noon to cook..."

At noon, Xiang Huailin took only a few mouthfuls of the table of dishes that Li Yuxi worked so hard to cook, and then went back to sleep again.

"Hey brother, you should eat two more bites..."

"Don't force me to eat."

"..."

Li Yuxi stood at the door of the bedroom after packing up the tableware, and said through the door:

"Brother Huailin. I have to accompany Uncle Zhao to a dinner party in the afternoon. How will you eat in the afternoon?"

"You're busy with your work, can I starve to death at my age?" Xiang Huailin's voice was still lackluster, Li Yuxi hesitated for a while, but went out anyway.

He opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling, and heard the sound of the door closing from the entrance.After lying down for a while, he found that he was not sleepy, so he sat up from the bed.He took out a cigarette and was about to light it, but Zhang Jian's dissatisfied voice sounded in his ears again:

"How many times has Xiang Huailin told you not to smoke on the bed! Are you looking for a beating?"

The hand that lit the cigarette involuntarily paused, his Adam's apple rolled, and then he lit the cigarette and took a deep breath.

Suddenly I remembered a sentence written by Keigo Higashino in the book - [There is no sun in my world, it is always night, but it is not dark, because something replaces the sun, although it is not so bright, but it is enough for me . 】

I still remember that after reading this sentence, I happily turned around and said to Zhang Jian who was watching the news, "Me too."

Zhang Jian had an expression of "I haven't taken the medicine again", "What are you, puppy?"

Xiang Huailin smiled, put down the book and kissed Zhang Jian, Zhang Jian responded gently.

But the most vicious thing in this world is that you let people who have been living in darkness see the light.He never felt cold until he had seen the light, because he was used to it.

Xiang Huailin smoked quietly, then got up and went to the bathroom to take a shower.He changed his clothes and drove to the company.

Maybe I love you just because you are the light, maybe I hate you just because you make me no longer used to the cold of the night.

Xiang Huailin parked the car, took the elevator and went directly to his office.When the little assistant saw the boss who disappeared all morning, it was like seeing a savior.

"Mr. Xiang, you're here. A gentleman has been waiting for you all morning. I told him that he wouldn't leave even if you were not here."

"What about people?"

"In...in your break room..."

"Is my lounge a place where I can enter casually?" Seeing that Xiang Huailin's face turned dark, the little assistant hurriedly explained:

"I...I know, but he said he is..." The little assistant collapsed, she really couldn't understand how that man could say "I'm his wife" with a calm face? !

"He said he was your wife. I saw that the ring he was wearing was indeed the ring you ordered last time, so I put it on him. Ah... mainly because it made Madam look really bad, so..."

He cursed at Huailin, didn't listen to her explanation, and strode towards the lounge.He pushed open the door of the lounge, and the slender figure of the man in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows slowly turned around. When he saw Xiang Huailin, his eyes turned red instantly, and his voice was hoarse:

"where did you go?"

Xiang Huailin's heart twitched violently, unable to speak a word.Zhang Jian's face was pale, haggard as if she had suffered a serious illness.He walked towards Xiang Huailin step by step, stretched out his hand to wrap Xiang Huailin who was stunned in place into his arms, his thin chin hurt Xiang Huailin's shoulder.

"Xiang Huailin... I... feel uncomfortable..."

Xiang Huailin was stiff and did not dare to move, he was afraid that the person in front of him would shatter if he moved.

"If you feel uncomfortable, you should go to the hospital. You can use me as a fart..."

Zhang Jian didn't answer. In the silence, the head on his shoulders became heavier and heavier, and Xiang Huailin could hardly support him.

"You're too heavy...Get up...I'll go!" Zhang Jian suddenly softened, and fell onto the big bed in the lounge under Xiang Huailin's pressure.

Xiang Huailin was startled, turned over the person on top of him, only to find that he was just asleep.Xiang Huailin breathed a sigh of relief.And Zhang Jian unconsciously rubbed against Huai Lin's side, stretched out his arms around the waist of the person beside him habitually, and smelled the familiar breath around his neck, breathing gradually evenly.

Xiang Huailin sighed helplessly, and was about to push Zhang Jian away, but felt something sticking to his arm, and when he took it out, it turned out to be the sleeping pill bottle in Zhang Jian's pocket.Xiang Huailin's heart beat instantly, and he unscrewed the medicine bottle and counted it, only one tablet was missing.

Xiang Huailin breathed a sigh of relief again, but even after knowing that Zhang Jian did not commit suicide by taking drugs, Xiang Huailin's hands still trembled uncontrollably.The medicine bottle was slammed against the wall by him.

For two weeks, Zhang Jian slept so deeply for the first time.When he opened his eyes, he found that the sky was a little dark.No one was around.

He got up in a panic, only to see Xiang Huailin sitting in the recliner by the French window.His expression was indifferent, and the lights of thousands of families in this city were reflected in his eyes.

He looked out of the window expressionlessly, raised his hand, and with a snap, something fell by Zhang Jian's hand.The light was dim, but he could hear the sleeping pills he had prescribed yesterday.

"What, are you going to threaten me with this thing?" Xiang Huailin's tone was emotionless.

Zhang Jian put the medicine away and put it back in her pocket, "I just can't sleep."

Xiang Huailin sneered, "Hey, it seems that your life with Ning Xiancheng is not harmonious. The only time we are together is when we can't get out of bed..."

"You know I'm not with him. Let's talk, shall we?"

"Ha, talk? What do we have to talk about? I ask you if you love him, but you don't know. I beg you to stay by my side, and you just turn around and leave. If Ning Xiancheng needs money, just say You love me! Seriously?! You ask why I don't believe you? Why the fuck do I believe you?!"

Zhang Jian only felt that thousands of words were choked in his throat, making him suffocate.Xiang Huailin got up, the figure against the light in the darkness looked tall and thin.

"I never expected you to love me! I never knew you didn't love me. If you stayed that day, I could always lie to myself that you were mine. Even if I knew you loved him, as long as you stayed by my side , you let me die for him, maybe I will go!"

Every word Xiang Huailin said made Zhang Jian feel distressed and scared, and made him tremble uncontrollably. "What nonsense are you talking about?! How could I let you die!?"

"Yeah, the worst thing you can do is make me feel like dying. Do you know how it feels to give someone who is used to the cold a little warmth and then leave?! Do you know how happy I am every day when you call me home for dinner? ?! Do you know how luxurious the word 'going home' is to me?! I have always wanted a home since I was a child, but no one can give it to me, so you gave it to me! But you Can't you lie to me any more?!"

Zhang Jian pulled Xiang Huailin over, pressed him on the bed and blocked his lips.They had never received such a suffocating kiss. Tears kept sliding down the corners of their lips to the tips of their tongues, and then the pain filled their entire hearts.

Zhang Jian let go of Xiang Huailin's lips, and pressed his head against her neck.This is the most intimate position in the world, completely exposing your softest and deadliest place under the other's lips and teeth.

"It's me who has been avoiding. I thought I was dedicated enough and infatuated enough. I thought I would only love him in this life. I was greedy. I didn't dare to say I love you to you because I was waiting for him to come back. I was afraid of me. Will not be reconciled...I thought I would not be reconciled. But when he comes back, I still want to be with you, I want to be with you, Xiang Huailin, I went wrong, can you let me come back...?"

Xiang Huailin raised his head and closed his eyes sadly, "But I don't want to try again. Back then I put all my eggs in one basket, and you made me lose everything. Now you let me gamble again, what should I bet with you?"

"Zhang Jian, you are too confused. Do you want to be with me because you love me or because you are used to it? Can you tell the difference? Living with someone you don't love is not happy. No matter how good he is to you, he likes you He is also the one who is happy. I don't want you to be unhappy, and I don't want to suffer so much for your choice again."

"Zhang Jian, we're done here, don't bother me any more."

Xiang Huailin gently pushed his chest away, and staggered away.The colorful lights of the imperial capital illuminated most of the rooms, the streets were full of traffic, pedestrians walked in a hurry, some were hysterical, some were singing softly, some forced smiles, and some were defeated.I hate only you, who once made me so close to happiness.