unspeakable ice

Chapter 55

On the afternoon of the afternoon when the funeral was held for Yu Xingqiang, because the statistics of the rented flowers were not correct, Cai Qunying casually mentioned something after getting the bill, and the second aunt insisted that there was something in her words that was slanderous.

The reason is that everyone can see it. It was the second uncle who came forward when negotiating with the funeral home. Now that the numbers are not the same, it is not implying who they are talking about.

Cai Qunying didn't mean that, and she couldn't argue with her, so she was accused of having a guilty conscience, and the second aunt got into a fight, insisting on breaking up with her about the 200 yuan.

In fact, it is not to blame for their bad attitude. The two families have a long history of grievances. It is said that when the second uncle was ill and needed surgery, he asked Yu Xingqiang to borrow 2 yuan. Yu Xingqiang and Cai Qunying ran out to play, and hung up on them no less than ten times.

In the end, the money was paid, but I didn't go to the hospital once, and I didn't contact him for many years. According to the second aunt, the money has been paid off, and being able to attend the funeral is already thinking about the last bit of blood.

Cai Qunying was so unpopular, and she still expected others to help her when she was in trouble. Yu Xiaolong didn't wrong her at all when she said that she asked relatives and friends to borrow money because it was a whim.

Cai Qunying couldn't argue, she cried while talking, Yu Xiaolong came in from the outside, and after listening to their quarrel, dragged her aside.

Among this group of relatives, he has always been notoriously poor in character, ignorant, lazy, vicious, evil to the neighbors, making him up and everything.

Anyway, his parents have such virtues, what kind of good can they teach, and there are even rumors that he is a member of the underworld.

So when it comes to this kind of time, he doesn't need to quibble, his face is more effective than anything else.

Sure enough, when the second aunt saw him coming forward, most of her anger disappeared immediately, she turned her back and muttered for a while, she didn't know what she was cursing.

Yu Xiaolong said that he would pay them the money as reported, but she didn't want it, so she took her bag and left, threatening to never have any contact with them again.

The other relatives persuaded each other for a while, and it was almost over once the matter was over.

Since that day, for half a month, Cai Qunying hasn't left the house once, doesn't talk to anyone, doesn't eat when the food is brought to her mouth, and just bows her head and wipes her tears every now and then.

She was deeply hurt and Yu Xiaolong could understand, but most of the time he felt that Cai Qunying would do this deliberately to show him embarrassment.

She tried to use this method to make him realize that he did not do the right thing about Yu Xingqiang, he made a very serious mistake.

Of course, she also made a deep self-reflection for this, and felt that, as outsiders said, one of the reasons was that she was not well educated since she was a child.

Because no matter how much she emphasizes family ties, how she spares no effort to instill her view of Yu Xingqiang's feelings on Yu Xiaolong, the result is always the opposite.

She admits that he has a good side, but now these are useless, and this alone has become his eternal criticism. People cannot be resurrected after death, and there is no chance left for him to repent and redeem.

And today, on such an occasion, the reason why his second aunt dared to speak unscrupulously in front of so many people, speculate on her wantonly, and humiliate her was because she was bullying that there was no one behind her.

After enduring it for a long time, Yu Xiaolong finally dropped the bowl and chopsticks on the dinner table that day. He told Cai Qunying to accept the reality, "It's not that I want him to die, it's his fate!"

"Who said his life is like this? Who deserves to die?" Cai Qunying fell louder than him, "Do you dare to say that if you save him early and go to a big hospital, you will definitely not be saved? So many people with cancer live It’s good that there are not a lot of people there!”

"Am I hopeless?!" Yu Xiaolong asked back: "The interventional treatment costs [-] yuan for one treatment. There are six treatments in total. How can I ever owe him?"

He also wanted to ask, which of the tests and medicines that should be done, which one he didn't follow, and the failure of the operation in the end was not because he didn't agree, but because he couldn't do it. Could it be him?

Standing by the table, Yu Xiaolong felt cold in his heart, "It's useless, isn't it? It's still not enough. I have to confess to him with a shy face, and at the same time, I can conjure up money out of thin air, and then I don't eat or drink. Is it enough to smash you to be satisfied?"

"When did I ask you so much?" Cai Qunying was trembling with anger, and wiped her face, "You just keep talking about money, and you only think about money. Is money as important as his life? Now that people are gone, you even have money." What's the use of money!"

"Of course you can say that." Yu Xiaolong laughed, "In your eyes, money is just a few numbers that I hand over regularly, oh no, it's not just the numbers, it's also my attitude, my conscience. "

"you……"

"Say I only think about money, what about you, don't you want to?" Yu Xiaolong looked at her, thinking that the way he opened his mouth and kept his mouth shut at the moment must be extremely disgusting in Cai Qunying's eyes, "What was spent on him, there is How much is my life, I have been out of society for so long, and now I am penniless and owe countless debts, have you ever cared about it? Have you ever thought about why?!"

"Why didn't you think that in your eyes, are we so unreasonable?"

Yes, it's that unreasonable.

Reasonable people talk about this point without talking, still emphasizing and questioning, "You ask us if we have thought about it, have you thought about it yourself, he is your father, where would you be without him! "

"...Without him, I would not be without me." Yu Xiaolong's expression was completely tainted with sadness when he was arguing, "But I have never lived a day, I hope you will give birth to me."

His eyes were full of mourning, and then there was some sarcasm. The extreme emotional changes distorted his face, "Now you understand, his death is the same as my birth, it is fate."

With a "slap", the corner of Yu Xiaolong's mouth became hot, and he wiped it with his fingertips, leaving a bloodstain.

"..." No matter how strong Cai Qunying was, he was able to dodge a knife and an axe, but his face was scratched by a fingernail.

Unbelievable, Yu Xiaolong thought it was too unbelievable, a person, how could he be wrong whether he did it or not, he couldn't help but start to deeply doubt whether he was self-righteous, but in fact he never did a thing right.

At the moment when he was surrounded by the darkness in the corridor, Yu Xiaolong really wanted to call Xia Cong, but when his will finally broke down, the longing for this person wrapped around him like wild weeds.

However, his finger stayed on the call button for a long time, but he didn't press it for a long time. Will Xia Cong answer? What did he say? vent?

These are not what Yu Xiaolong wants, maybe at this moment he thinks very simply, he doesn’t say anything, just listen to Xia Cong’s voice, he hasn’t heard it for a long time, and he almost can’t remember the way he spoke .

Sitting in the back row of the bus, looking at the dim scenery outside the window, he suddenly realized that he didn't want to forget, but wanted to remember it all the time, even if the feeling of sober remembering was endless, it didn't make him feel good.

Yu Xiaolong went to Xia Cong's house. During the six months of separation, he never came once, and the door was opened by him without any surprise. Since Xia Cong decided to leave this house to him, the password will naturally not be changed. .

Everything was the same as when he walked out of here that day, nothing had changed, even the three-legged floor lamp that was repaired by Xia Cong after the two of them fell in a fight next to the sofa stood firmly on the spot.

It's just that it hasn't been popular for a long time, and the linen lampshade has a layer of dust. Yu Xiaolong turned off all the other lights, leaving only this one. The warm yellow light circle casts a gentle shadow around the sofa.

Yu Xiaolong sat down and sank into the sofa, which was where Xia Cong used to sit. He was thinking about things here, and he insisted on pestering him many times regardless of excuses.

He imitated his appearance, focusing his eyes on the distant sky outside the floor-to-ceiling windows. The night scene was beautiful, but because of his numbness, thousands of lights fell in his eyes, leaving only a bleak emptiness.

He looked at it for a while, and there was heat on his face, which was itchy. He raised his hand and wiped it.

what?

Yu Xiaolong glanced at his hand, a little unbelievable, and quickly wiped it again, not only was there no less, but more and more.

He suddenly slapped himself hard.

There was a clear and crisp sound in the darkness, and he calmed down after calling, and heard the phone ringing in his pocket.

He picked it up, the other side was silent at first, and then called his name, "Yu Xiaolong." A familiar voice said, "It's me."

Yu Xiaolong didn't speak, the mobile phone was stuck to his ear, his palm was a little damp, the back panel seemed to be hot, and the pinna of his ear was followed by a burst of heat.

Xia Cong waited for a while, but before he could speak, there was a faint breathing sound through the receiver, "Are you here?" he said.

Yu Xiaolong clenched his teeth, tears streaming down uncontrollably, he pinched his cheek tightly with the other hand.

Xia Cong sighed inaudibly, "I originally called you to hear your voice, since you don't want to talk, then forget it."

I thought he was going to hang up after saying this, but he never did.

Yu Xiaolong moved the phone away a little bit, his breathing was all messed up, and it was too easy to notice the strangeness.

But he was reluctant to hang up, even if Xia Cong didn't speak, he just stayed with him like this.

"Listen to me." Xia Cong said, "Let me think about what I should say first, first ask if you are doing well, right...Yu Xiaolong, how are you doing?"

Yu Xiaolong put the phone away again.

Xia Cong seemed to laugh, "You don't want to answer such a simple question?"

"I know if you don't tell me, it's not good, right? Luo Shaoqin told me that you went out to drink with him three times and watched two games. He also told me that you are very thin, why are you so thin, and you didn't eat well? ?"

"...Why don't you eat well, aren't you the least picky eater?"

When Xia Cong said this, his breathing became irregular for a moment, and he lowered his voice, "You don't accept my things, you don't eat, you are forcing me to feel sorry for you, right?"

"You, you don't want to go with me, and you have to force me to listen to this."

This time Xia Cong was silent for a long time, so long that Yu Xiaolong thought that the phone was not on, no one was talking to him, and all he heard was an illusion caused by being too persistent. Call him by name.

"Yu Xiaolong." He said, "I miss you very much."

Yu Xiaolong hung up the phone, but he didn't make a sound from the beginning to the end. He looked around, where the light couldn't reach, the boundaries of the outline became blurred, he propped his elbows on his knees, and slowly buried his face in the palm.

I don't know when I fell asleep. When I woke up, it was already dawn, and my body was a little cold. After a while, Yu Xiaolong turned off the light and went out.

There were no people on the road, and the surrounding was very quiet, only a few birds chirping from time to time. When he left the community, he remembered that he hadn't eaten dinner. At this time, he hadn't left the stall for breakfast, and he didn't feel hungry. He was going to eat a bowl of noodles when he got back.

When he got to the bottom of the mansion, the dog barked. Yu Xiaolong waited for the dog to pick him up, but there was no shadow for a long time. He looked forward, but his feet involuntarily settled on the same spot.

The sky was dark, and he suspected that he might not have been sober all night.

The corners of his eyes tightened, and he suddenly recalled the self he saw in the mirror that day, and had the urge to turn around and leave for a moment.

He didn't expect to see Xia Cong again under such circumstances. If he could foresee it, he would definitely wash his face before coming out, but with his appearance, it may not be of any use.

The moment Xia Cong saw Yu Xiaolong's appearance clearly, he unsurprisingly showed a bit of surprise, then helplessly, he waved his hand, calling him softly as if he was afraid of startling him.

Yu Xiaolong's eyes turned red uncontrollably again.

He stood still, Xia Cong could only walk towards him first, just a few steps away, when he was about to stop when he came to him, Yu Xiaolong suddenly hugged him.

"I'll go with you." He said, his voice was a little out of control, and he tore it out from the depths of his throat along with small whimpers, "Xia Cong, I'll go with you."

Xia Cong's chest felt a little painful from the impact, but almost subconsciously, he opened his arms to catch him, hugged him tightly, and kissed his hair, "Okay."