The years you healed

Chapter 18 CH 18

Since then, it has been superficially as if it never happened.One didn't ask any more questions, and the other didn't mention it anymore, and several months passed in peace like this.

Before all the snow melted, Jiao Chenxi went to the backyard of the villa. The pair of snowmen who were supposed to be under the tree no longer had their original appearance, only two piles of snow remained in place.

"Did it melt so quickly?"

Jiao Chenxi sat under the tree, sighing softly.

Probably the two of them are like these two little snowmen. When this winter is completely over, everything will be on the right track, and all unclear thoughts and emotions will disappear together.

"That's right. It's almost March, and the snow should have melted long ago."

They are obviously doing things that are good for each other, so why do they feel sorry for each other?

"An?" Jiao Chenxi raised his eyebrows.

It seems that I suddenly realized that I don't know when I started to become sentimental, a little... not like my original self.

In the past, when encountering any trivial matter or love, after a meal, you can basically throw it on the back of your head, and on top of that, your head is not bright, and your heart is bigger than the sky.

So unless it's the end of the world, it's not a big deal.

Jiao Chenxi picked up a snowball, slowly spread it in the palm of his hand, and began to communicate with its soul.

"You said, if I don't tell him now, he will never know!"

"Actually, it doesn't mean that I have to keep this matter as a secret. I just think that once he knows the truth, he will be resistant to me if he doesn't cooperate with the treatment, and his condition will definitely get worse. Or he thinks It was my own fault caused by drinking, I started to be negative and hated myself..."

Jiao Chenxi frowned and muttered, ignoring the redness of his palms and the gradually shrinking snow.After thinking about it, he held the snow block for some reason, and with a little force, it melted faster now.

"...What's more, I wasn't drunk at all at the time, so didn't I feel that I lacked great virtue afterward!"

Jiao Chenxi didn't realize that the snow block was dying, dripping water from the gap between his fingers.

He slapped his thigh: "Sure enough, if you tell a lie, you have to use countless lies to make up for it. This is absolutely true!"

Thinking about Wu Qi, he doesn't know anything now, it doesn't matter at all.It doesn't matter, this burden is on my shoulders!

After thinking about it, he sighed again.

"Ugh--"

While Jiao Chenxi was distressed, his fingernails lightly touched the palm of his hand.

"Ah! Hey?!"

Only then did he notice that the snow in his hand had completely melted into water, dripping down from his hand.

He blinked blankly, full of apology for the other little snow lump stuck in place alone.

"That... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to."

……

Time came to this day in a blink of an eye-March 3.

Today is Jiao Chenxi's mother's birthday.

Previously, due to the online incident of medical records being circulated, it caused heated discussions among the public for a while, and the opinions were different, both good and bad.

Based on the principle of thinking for Wu Qi, Jiao Chenxi not only turned off Wu Qi's mobile phone, but also obediently put his own mobile phone in the drawer in order to prevent him from over-interpreting those comments and speeches. .

It was my mother's birthday on this day, and I wanted to call my family and report that I was safe.Then plug the phone into the charger and turn it on again.

Opening a few unread emails in the e-mail box is all spam advertisements.When I opened the message record with my mother in the message list, a message popped up suddenly.

It was a video sent by my mother, followed by two smiling emojis.

My mother is a very gentle person. She is afraid that her son will disturb her work or rest, so she usually does not take the initiative to contact her, but she will occasionally send a video to tell her where they are now.

In fact, just the year before, Jiao Chenxi's parents both retired, sold their house, packed their luggage hastily and went out to travel around the world.

He didn't inform his son when he left. It wasn't until Jiao Chenxi went back to his hometown that he couldn't find anyone and called his parents. Then he found out that the couple had gone on a sweet double tour.

When asked why he didn't tell himself, there was silence on the other end of the phone for a while, and then his father answered in an embarrassing manner.

"...forget...forget."

Sometimes I really wonder if my poor memory is genetic. Because the old man was too embarrassed to admit it, he made up a nonsense about 'you bumped your head when you were young' to lie to him.

Jiao Chenxi took out the phone book and dialed the number to Jiao's mother, and his father answered the call.

Father Jiao: "Hello, who is it?"

"?? Who is it??" Jiao Chenxi supported his forehead depressedly: "Dad, I am your son."

He must have accidentally deleted his phone number again.

"Chenxi?" Dad seemed puzzled for a moment: "But you didn't use this number before?"

"The previous one is long gone. It's been a long time."

When I used the last phone number, my girlfriend from college hadn't broken up yet.The couple are equally nostalgic.

"Whose phone is it? Is it Xiao Chenxi?" Mom's voice came from the other end of the phone.

As if approaching from a distance, after telling Dad about the work in hand, Mother Jiao answered the phone.

"Xiao Chenxi, it's mother. How is life now? Is work going well?"

Mother's gentle voice came from the other end of the phone, asking questions one after another, which made Jiao Chenxi feel a little headache, but also a little bit bitter.

Since going to college, the opportunities to meet her have become less, and I don't know how long it has been since I hugged her.

"?" The other side saw him silent for a long time, looked at the screen of the phone suspiciously, and asked again.

"I'm fine, and my work...is going well." Jiao Chenxi sniffed: "Mom, happy birthday, I miss you."

At this moment, Wu Qi, who was outside the door, quietly took half a step back when he was about to step into the door, and turned around to lean against the wall silently.

Originally, he came up to ask Jiao Chenxi because he couldn't find something.He happened to see Jiao Chenxi sitting in a corner with his knees hugged, and he clearly saw that Jiao Chenxi's eye circles were still red.

Although she couldn't see her son on the other end of the phone, she could hear her son crying. Mother Jiao smiled softly and said, "Xiao Chenxi is not young now, why is he crying like a child instead?"

Jiao Chenxi pursed his mouth, acting like a child with his mother.

"Mom, is it embarrassing for boys to cry?"

"Of course it's not shameful, it's not a girl's privilege to cry." Jiao's mother gently taught, and she still didn't forget to tease her.

"But Xiao Chenxi can still cry for her mother now, who will cry for her in the future?"

Jiao Chenxi had no choice but to say, "...Mom."

Sure enough, at the next sentence, Mother Jiao asked a question.

"Xiao Chenxi, now... do you have a partner?"

"No."

"Your father and I are not in a hurry to let you start a family, but you are not young now, so it's time to find someone to live with."

Jiao Chenxi frowned and wondered: Isn't that the same thing?

"Don't! Don't rush! Mom, don't forget how you strongly opposed my girlfriend who was in college at the time."

When Jiao's mother heard this, she couldn't help being anxious, and didn't know how to explain it, so she uttered a sentence slowly.

"...that's different."

Jiao Chenxi could hear the urgency in her mother's words, so she had no choice but to persuade her.

"What's the difference? From getting acquainted to falling in love and finally getting married, you have to do it step by step. It's useless for you to be anxious."

The figure outside the door did not stay any longer, Wu Qi moved slowly and walked towards his room, every step under his feet was as heavy as his heart.

fall in love... get married...

I don't know if it's because of depression, but he seems to be more sure of his dependence and liking for another person than usual.

That's how I like Jiao Chenxi.

But he couldn't be happy because of his illness and the illusory future in his eyes.

Because I can't see my own future, I dare not delay the future of others.

No matter how much you like it, you can only hide it in your heart and dare not say it.

From the content of Jiao Chenxi's phone call just now, it is not difficult to guess that his family members are urging him to start a family.

Wu Qi stopped slowly on the platform on the second floor, thinking back on his whole life, because of his family background, he was surrounded by people since he was a child, but it seems that he never met a real good friend in every student period.

After graduating from university, I set up a company through my own hard work, but my life is still boring.

The biological parents have passed away one after another, and even the column of family members in the medical record is filled in the family members in the legal sense.So far, no one has ever persuaded me to get married and start a family.

Wu Qi leaned on the handrail, lowered his head and looked downstairs, his vision gradually blurred, and his body sank more and more.

'Is my existence really meaningful? '

……

After Jiao Chenxi hung up the phone, as soon as he went out, he was almost scared out of his mind by the scene in front of him.

Wu Qi was standing soullessly, with his hands on the armrests, his upper body leaning forward, as if he was about to fall down.

"Little Chess!"

Things happened so fast that there was no time to wait for other reactions in the brain.He rushed forward with a stride, and hugged Wu Qi back by the waist.

The two fell to the ground with a flutter and a roll, Jiao Chenxi clutched his heart, and leaned against the corner of the wall panting.

For a moment just now, his heart seemed to be gripped by a hand, and he looked up at Wu Qi who was sitting on the ground in a daze.

Does this person know that he almost fell!

"you!"

Jiao Chenxi was anxious and angry, grabbed Wu Qi by the collar and stared at him, but facing such a desperate expression, he couldn't say a word of reproach.

With his hands trembling unceasingly, Jiao Chenxi lowered his head and tried his best to calm down his emotions.

Originally, the incidence probability of depressed patients is unstable, and they cannot control themselves.Jiao Chenxi clearly knew these reasons, but why couldn't he control his anger at this time?

Why is my recent self less and less like my original self...

Jiao Chenxi clenched his teeth, bowed his head and remained silent, his hands were still tightly clutching Wu Qi's collar and refused to let go.

Wu Qi half-kneeled on the ground, looked straight at Jiao Chenxi, and could feel his hands trembling with tension.

Is he angry?Still scared?

Wu Qi lowered his eyes slowly, and gently covered Jiao Chenxi's fists with his palms.

The owner of the fist seemed to be startled for a moment, and looked up at Wu Qi.

Wu Qi didn't meet his gaze, but greedily wanted to further feel the warmth of the fist owner, so he held his hand with his fingers.

The voice was hoarse: "Sorry, I have caused you trouble again."

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