his eyes

Chapter 8

one month later......

I lay in the hospital for more than a month as if I had a terminal illness. The doctor said that it was because of excessive sadness. I had a high fever every day and was in pain. When I thought I was going to die, I was miraculously cured.

It must be that Aolong came back to look for me. He wanted to pull me over, but in the end he couldn't bear to let go.

Now I am as thin as a piece of paper, and my weight has been reduced from 150 to 120 in just one month. It is hard to imagine how painful this month is.

I used to think that I would be desperate and never forget him. Time is really a magical thing. In just one month, I can’t even remember his appearance. It’s not forgetting, it’s the deepest love. The dragon's cells flowed into my whole body, blended into my bones, and merged with my love.

This is considered to be living with two shares, I want to live together with his share, live wonderfully, live happily, share for two, everything is for two.

I’m not sad, I’m not sad when I think about it, I want to live a good life, it’s still the same as before, I still have my friends, relatives, except Luoron, nothing has changed, right?

Indeed everything has changed without him...

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"It's okay, it's okay, don't be sad, seeing you so thin." I vaguely felt someone pushing me, and I quickly got up from the desk. I have really been lethargic recently, and I was so sleepy in the morning reading class.

"Ah? get out of class is over now? Let's go to eat." I shook my head, and Mao Yongquan looked a little surprised. No wonder, I didn't expect my state to recover so quickly. At first, I was dying.

There are so many people in the cafeteria. I ordered porridge as usual and sat in the original seat. Mao Yongquan and Xiong Feng sat at the opposite table. When I saw the empty seat next to me, I felt a pang in my heart. I took a deep breath and drank the porridge. Come.

"Drink it slowly, don't burn it." Xiong Feng grabbed my chopsticks, I felt uncomfortable, I grabbed the chopsticks, ignored him, and kept drinking with my head down. I really wasn't as strong as I imagined.

Even if I can't remember his appearance anymore, I'm still sad, very sad, my elders just sat in the cafeteria and cried, Xiong Feng and the others didn't say anything, just watched me cry like this.

This month has been like ten years. I have changed a lot and thought about it a lot. I know in my heart that if I love him, it is enough for him to love me too.

They waited for me to finish crying. At this time, I had already started class. I felt that my eyes were swollen. They should be very red. When I went out, I met Lu Zhoufan. He was as sunny and handsome as ever. See you.

I looked at him for two seconds, his eyes were bottomless, and I vaguely saw disappointment, disgust, and many emotions in it. He must be tired of me. I don’t know when my mind became so delicate. I can carefully figure out the subtle changes in expression, a little change can make me think a lot, I have really changed, I can feel it myself.

Today's weather is very good, very good, looking at the pure blue sky without any impurities, I think of Luolong; seeing the rustling leaves, I think of Luolong, if he is still there, am I very happy, I am really good Thinking of him, I feel that my heart is gradually changing from a man to a woman. The previous violent temper and carefree personality are gradually disappearing in me. This may be because I gradually fell in love with Lu Aurong before. , Is that so, I gradually regarded myself as a woman.

When I returned to my seat, Lu Zhoufan was sleeping. Since we stopped talking, he has been sleeping every day, sleeping all day long, probably staying up all night every day. He gradually got mixed up with his cronies again, and things seemed to be back to normal. In the beginning, none of us knew each other, and each had his own life.

We were such good brothers before, but because of a sexual orientation, we were alienated by him and became what we are now. It is a pity and not reconciled. Why should I be despised.

"Okay, students, calm down." The head teacher came in, and we all returned to our seats, and Lu Zhoufan also got up reluctantly.

"The school decided to organize an autumn outing for the whole school. Our class will go to Mount A. The fee is as follows. Each person pays 500 yuan. The time is two days and three nights. From October 10st to October 21th, we will return to school in the morning and formally start classes in the afternoon, with tents and food. They are all assigned by the school, and the party branch secretary comes up and takes down the watch." After the class teacher finished speaking, the class exploded, and the girls were about to jump up. It's okay, Qiuyou will not be so depressed when he goes out to relax.

Everyone was discussing with whom to live in a tent. It was said that the tent was very small and could only accommodate two people. Xiong Feng and Mao Yongquan definitely shared a tent, and the rest of the class were not very familiar. Zhoufan is a tent, and the watch will be passed down soon, and I am almost entangled to death.

The form was passed to Lu Zhoufan. He opened it to look at it first, then picked up the pen, wrote a few words hastily, and squinted at it. "We live together." After he finished speaking, he passed the form to the following people, and get down.

I can’t tell what’s in my heart for a while, why is he so sure that I want to be with him, why is he so arrogant, but he has indeed guessed it, his EQ is really high and scary, what do I think in my heart, what do I like Nothing can escape his eyes.

So did he forgive me?I can't even talk about forgiveness. I didn't do anything wrong. Is he thinking about it?Are you sick of me?Still pity me.

"Ah Jun, who are you with? Why don't you live in our tent? How about we live together?" Xiong Feng ran over with his watch.

"You're blind, isn't it written on the watch that I'm with him?" I pointed to the names of the two of us, Lu Zhoufan's handwriting was really sloppy, it looked like a ghostly talisman if you didn't look carefully.

"Damn it, didn't he stop talking to you? Why are you two still in the same team?" Xiong Feng said in a low voice.

"He filled it out, I don't know what he thinks"

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"You fucking, I treat you as a brother, how can you be a homosexual?" Lu Zhoufan suddenly got up from the table and looked at me and said, just like homosexuals can eat people, this is the first time he has been serious in a month. talk to me.

"I'm gay and don't mess with you, why are you so anxious, besides, I only liked Luoron, and I wouldn't like any other man except him." I rolled my eyes at him, don't think I'm good looking Anyone can fall in love with you.

"I really can't figure it out. How can a man fall in love with a man? Do you know how distressed I have been for the past few weeks? I just can't figure it out." Lu Zhoufan behaved like a child , that stubborn look is kind of cute.

"I see that you usually sleep well in class, don't you? I don't see how distressed you are?" This guy usually plays when he should play, and sleeps when he shouldn't. I haven't seen him in the slightest distress.

"Every day when I get down on the ground, I think about the two of you. I think about the disgusting eyes you look at him. I think about him coming to you every day. How can you two men talk about it?" I really don't understand him. Thinking logic, maybe in his eyes, this is disgusting, or there are other emotions in it.

"If it's disgusting, you don't want to look at it, and you don't want to. Besides, why do you care so much?" If it were me, I wouldn't take a second look at the disgusting things.

"I...I, I treat you as a brother, but you are really gay, can I not care?" This guy couldn't catch up with me, he stuttered, he knew how guilty he was, he was really like a child , I don't know what's in my mind, although I can't figure out his little thoughts.

"Okay, okay, it's rare that you think about it and are willing to talk to me. I'll treat you to dinner after school later." After I finished speaking, I started to tidy up the books.

"Then I'll call those brothers and stop eating with them." After Lu Zhoufan finished speaking, he started to make a phone call. The teacher raised the phone to his ear directly on the podium, and I sweated for him. .

The get out of class bell rang within a few minutes. Walking with him made people feel inferior. He completely covered up my light, and all the girls stared at him along the way.

I took him to the Lanzhou Ramen at the school gate, a young master like him would never have glanced at it, and for me, a bowl of noodles worth more than ten yuan is considered a relatively luxurious food.

"What do you eat here?" He walked into the shop and looked left and right, and he didn't seem to be interested in the types posted on the wall.

"Sit down quickly, I'll go and order, there won't be any seats for a while." I quickly grabbed a seat for Lu Zhoufan to sit down, and I went to order. There are so many people in the store after school, so if I can't get a seat, I should pack it.

Because there were a lot of customers in the store, the waiters couldn't clean up, and there was still a bowl left by the previous customer in our seat.

"It's a bit dirty, I'll wipe it, don't move it." Just as Lu Zhoufan was about to wipe it, I moved his bowl over and stopped him immediately, saying that he had never touched these things before.

"Why are you staring at me?" This Lu Zhoufan really had all his emotions written on his face, and he looked at me with a moved expression.

"Let's eat, let's eat!" Soon two bowls of beef noodles were served. I took two pairs of chopsticks from the disinfection cabinet and handed him a pair. I ate it.

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"Enough to eat, go back to class, wipe your mouth, I should go to the bar" We walked out the door, the sun had already set, and the wind was a bit strong, I handed him the paper.

"I'll take you there..." He stopped me and took out the car keys.

"Come on, why are you being so nice to me? Are you gay too?" I gave him a smirk and got on the bus.

"Go back to class, and practice more with the set I taught you." Sitting by the window, he waved his hand.

In the bar, I try to avoid sad and sad songs, and sing some soft songs, so maybe I can forget him faster.

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After singing for two and a half hours, I walked out of the bar. At this time, the weather was already very cold, and it was still raining lightly. I was only wearing a single shirt, shivering from the cold.

Suddenly, an umbrella appeared above my head, covering all the rain. I turned around, and it was Lu Zhoufan. He was right behind me. For the first time, I felt that he was so tall.

"Why did you come out? I've been waiting for you for a long time. You're freezing." He said, handing me the umbrella, then took off his coat and put it on me.

Maybe this is the first time I fell in love with you......

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