Hedgehog

Chapter 41 Insomnia

I used to think that I would not suffer from insomnia when I was with Ji Rongfu, but it turns out that I am still too young.

It's cool when it's cool, but it's a bit uncomfortable after it's over. The room was very dark, and Ji Rongfu went to pour another glass of water. I asked him hoarsely, "What time is it?"

"Four in the morning." He put down his glass, sat down on the edge of the bed, reached out and stroked my hair, eyes smiling in the dark.

"I want to smoke." I started hoarse again.

Ji Rongfu didn't speak, went out for a while, and then returned to the bed, there was a flicker of fire between his fingers, I thought he was really going to give me a cigarette, but he put the ashtray by the bed and leaned against the bed sucked up.

He still has very good eyesight in the dark, and found that I was staring at him quietly, smiling and touching my head.

"What's the matter?" He bent his eyes and looked at me: "Aren't you happy to smell the smoke?"

I curled up in the quilt silently, pretending to be a sick patient who lost his temper.

In fact, I also know that Ji Rongfu can smoke, he is very self-control.My health has never been good, and I can't smoke often because of my throat, but I can't help it when others smoke in front of me. Ye Ning was almost thrown out of the house by me several times because of this.I don’t know when he discovered this. Anyway, I’ve never seen him smoking in front of me. Today, he probably deliberately teased me. He smoked half a cigarette and then extinguished it.Leaning against the head of the bed, he stretched out his hand and hooked my face with his fingers, and twirled my hair between them. The room was very quiet, and I lay lazily, listening to his clear breathing, as if I could go on like this forever. Stay forever.

He is a person who often gives people the illusion of warmth. He is obviously a hard jade, but has a warm shell. I knew he was dangerous at the beginning, but then he gradually lost his vigilance, like a prey paralyzed by sweet venom.

It's raining outside, and the branches and leaves in the garden are rustling in the wind. Ji Rongfu prefers floor-to-ceiling windows, which I don't like, so there are none in this house.

"Is it true?" I asked him suddenly.

"What's true." He pretended not to understand.

"You said that you will be sure when you saw me by the pool for the first time," I don't know why I brought up this topic: "Is it true?"

Ji Rongfu was silent for a while.

"Do you want some soup..." He gestured to go to the kitchen.

"Damn it!" I just got up and grabbed him and pressed him on the bed. The bastard had planned it long ago, and he didn't have any resistance at all. He was held down by me with a smile in his eyes, and his arms were still around my waist, lest I get too excited and fall to the ground. Go under the bed.

"Say it quickly," I threatened him viciously, "or I'll kill you."

Ji Rongfu smiled and glanced at the ashtray that I pressed against his neck as a weapon: "With your current physical condition, it should be a bit difficult to achieve this goal."

"Stop talking nonsense, speak quickly!"

"What?" Ji Rongfu looked at me with a smile, probably knowing that I was on the verge of breaking out, and pretended to compromise: "Okay, let me say. I like you very much..."

"It's not this." Just as I was about to refute, my waist was hugged tightly.

"I like you very much, I like you as hell," he interrupted me, put his arms around my waist, put his chin on my shoulder, and whispered into my ear: "I saw you at the pool for the first time. You, I was just thinking, this person is so funny, he pretends to be so smart, but he is actually so cute. I must restrain myself, and I must not scare him..."

I became angry from embarrassment.

"It's not this, I..."

Ji Rongfu turned over and pressed me under his body, his hands resting on the side of my face, like a gentle leopard, a strand of hair slipped down from his forehead, behind that, his dark amber eyes were like deep Bottomless pool of water, with endless smiles.

"Also, that day you were in Yisong, kissed me and then ran away. That night I was thinking, when you finish writing the song, I will catch you back, strip you of all your clothes, and then..."

His fingers slid across my cheeks, neck, and slowly from my chest to my waist. I flinched a little, but he laughed again, bent down, and kissed me tenderly and affectionately.

The quilt is like a fluffy cloud, wrapping me and Ji Rongfu together, I am like a prey caught in a spider web, losing my will little by little in the sweet trap.

Ji Rongfu's voice was warm and restrained, hissing steam in my ears.

He said: "I like you, Lin Sui, I like you more than I like the world. If I have time, I will tell you all about me, as long as you don't get scared. But before that, you Go to sleep obediently first. Because I really want to hear what it looks like when you cry with a hoarse voice, and you don't want to know where the limit of my patience is..."

He said: "When I was 13 years old, I didn't believe that there is a so-called soul mate in this world, but I finally met you. As I said, since I was a child, no one can take away what I want. Don't worry, you can Don't worry because we still have a lifetime. This is my game, remember?"

"So," he gently kissed my cheek, "Good night, Lin Sui."

"Good night."

I curled up in the quilt, and Ji Rongfu's body wrapped around my waist from behind, he was ten centimeters taller than me, it was actually very hot to sleep like this, I often had to kick the quilt in the middle of the night, but it seems that this guy was outside since he was a child For the sake of lack of love for reading, let him go.

The surroundings gradually quieted down, and I remembered the time after my grandmother passed away. At that time, I was very afraid of the dark, and I was very afraid of sleeping. I even felt terrible when I thought of the passage of time. Bad, how to go to heaven.

I heard Ji Rongfu's clear breathing, probably childhood will indeed affect a person's life, I have seen a psychiatrist for six years, but I still can't get rid of this sense of insecurity, even though he is lying next to me, with a warm body and a strong body arm, I could reach out and touch his face, but I still felt like something was wrong, otherwise he wouldn't belong to me.

When I was by Ji Rongfu's side, it was often like today, I would not fall asleep obediently until I was too tired.Probably because I have never gotten any good things, so I don't know what to do with Ji Rongfu, like the chocolate candy I got by accident when I was a child, it was clearly placed in my schoolbag, but I always felt that there would be a mouse in the middle of the night. Steal my candy.Because it is too important, there is no possibility of losing it at all.

That day at the racecourse, what I wanted to tell him was, "Today is the happiest day since I was seven years old."

In fact, after meeting him, every day is the happiest day, and I am happier every day.

I have many sympathetic stories to tell him, but at that moment, in the sun, with his hair shining and his smile as bright as the sun, I looked into his eyes and that was all I wanted to tell him.

I don't want him to feel sorry for not being able to participate in my past, just like I would also like to meet seven-year-old Ji Rongfu and do nothing but pat his head tenderly.

When I was 20 years old, I curled up on the bathroom floor of the Huatian dormitory, crying loudly. At that time, I felt that I had nothing. I thought that the world would continue to rot like this. I didn’t believe that there would be anything that belonged to me.

I always want to travel back to that day and tell myself at that time that everything will pass, just like I always want to tell myself when I was seven years old, it’s okay, you will grow up well, and you will meet friends, even though you have to leave before that After a long period of loneliness and darkness, you have no mother, no family, but at least you will encounter music, and you will become stronger.

You will also meet a person, his name is Ji Rongfu, he has the most gentle eyes you have ever seen, and the soul that fits you the most, he will understand both the words you say and the words you cannot say, he You don't need to fight, you don't need to be brave, because he likes you, so he will never give up on you, as long as you are still you, he will kiss your forehead and say good night to you tenderly.

In this way, at least at that time, I would not secretly hide in the quilt and cry every night.

As soon as I recovered, the X-League had to start recording again.

There are still a lot of fans, and they are watching at the airport. Fortunately, Yang Yue has always been reliable in his work. The VIP passage that he walked directly through is very spacious. I waved to the frustrated fans through the queue: "Go back, go to school, go back Go home, you won't be able to catch me."

It can be seen that being a person is the most taboo to talk too much, not to mention being caught for a group photo on the plane, and when I arrived in the recording city, I was squeezed into meatloaf first, and the little girls were all wearing pink down jackets, screaming while squeezing me: "Now Got you now."

Their video editing skills have always been very fast. What I said at the Beijing airport was recorded and posted online. When I got off the plane in City A, every fan had already watched it. They were eager to catch me. When I got to the hotel, "You guys I can't catch me" is already on the hot search list. They cut the comparison video of me at the two airports together, and added it with sound effects and emoticons. I just went to the recording location to gather, Lin Xiaobai Already came over with a mobile phone: "Brother Lin, brother Lin, I will submit to you if you want to die."

I kicked him and went to gather with other people. When the program crew came to install the microphone, they didn’t give out uniforms. I was very surprised: “Is there no team this time?”

The result is that we are fighting each other. There is a small satellite city next to City A, which specializes in film and television. A large film and television city has been built. It takes two hours to drive. The team dropped us at any location in City A, and asked us to find a way to solve the Chinese food, finish the task, and then gather in the film and television city before [-] pm, without asking passers-by for help.

Lin Xiaobai knew that I was better at making money than him, so he frantically harassed me with phone calls: "Brother Lin, bring me one, I'm obedient, let me beat your legs, okay?"

"Go get a guitar and meet me at the south of Yulan Road."

He can only eat at all: "How do you get the guitar?"

"Do it with your head," I hated that iron could not be made into steel: "Come on, you should find a way to come here first, just bring your own people with you."

In fact, I am not close to the south of Yulan Road, but there is a restored old street, where a group of young people who have been to Lijiang, Tibet, and Nepal gather. Buying a coffee comes with a postcard printed by the owner's brigade. The food is expensive and unpalatable. This is not closed down, which shows how many people have been taken advantage of on that street. The SV station is so good, I thought that if I don’t let me swipe my face, I won’t be able to get money. There are also designated tasks for Chinese food. Mine is fried chicken and beer, but I don’t know that I’m a businessman, and I’m the best at making money. question.

I was not with Lu Yan, so CP fans had to divide into two groups, about half of them chased me through the streets and alleys, and attracted many onlookers. Go around and shake some off.This scene is a bit like playing a stand-alone game. Those mobs that I abandoned were stationed at various intersections in a daze, and each had a trigger range. I had to flexibly avoid all the mobs and walk to the south of Yulan Road. It will also reveal my location.

When I slanted in from the alley behind the old street and climbed over a wall to reach the inside of the old street, those girls could only look at the wall and sigh.

At this time, the importance of sunglasses was reflected. I put the sunglasses on the face of a director with short hair, asked the photographer to follow him, and took the opportunity to sneak into the roadside musical instrument store.

The owner of the store is a man who is quite concerned about the Internet dynamics, pointing at me: "You, you, you are not that..."

I glanced at the photos on the wall, and they were all small music festivals that were not popular. I quickly browsed through them and asked him, "Have you been to the C City Outdoor Music Festival in 13?"

"No," he said honestly, "I've seen the video."

"Do you remember that year when the Trojan Horse band sang three songs together?" I spotted a Gibson: "I was the guitarist for them. You lend me this guitar, and I will give you the cameraman, and I will return it to you later."

He still struggled in vain: "But Yang Si, the guitarist in their band..."

"Yang Si is my younger brother, and I taught him the electric guitar." I took off the piano and tried the strings, and played with my fingers first: "Is there any problem?"

"No, no more."

I took his western cowboy hat, thought for a while, and took off the wig and beard on the head model where the hat was placed, dressed up in disguise, and took off the cameraman's army green coat and put it on, Vi see With my shape, it is estimated that I will have a myocardial infarction.

When Lin Xiaobai arrived, I was already selling and singing on the street. A cameraman was driven by me to walk back and forth along the ancient street to attract fans, and the other hid in the dark and took pictures of me quietly. There was no one for a while. Discover.I only picked songs that were played in the streets of Lijiang to sing, and I changed my voice. In fact, the job of a wandering singer is quite profitable. As long as you have no bottom line and sing songs that the target group likes, it is not a problem to spend thousands of dollars in the morning.And you have to be able to choose a location. Like me, I chose a barbecue restaurant next to it. People feel good when they are full. The change I found was five yuan and ten yuan, and it was dirty, so I simply threw it into my piano case.

If it wasn't for Lin Xiaobai's quick arrival, I could still earn a little more.

He is really stupid, he can't hide it at all, and with a large number of fans, he rushed from the street to the end of the street, calling me frantically while rushing: "Brother Lin, where are you, why can't I find you."

I hung up the phone and texted him: "Shut up and wait for me in front of the stone temple. What is your lunch mission?"

He sent two words: "Lobster."

I didn't care about smashing the audience's good impression of homeless singers, so I squatted down next to the piano box and started counting money.

After a while, he sent another message: "Brother Lin, what does the number and English mean after the lobster, 2lb."

That means pounds. The program crew was probably afraid of me taking advantage of the loopholes. They were afraid that I would instruct Lin Xiaobai to cook spicy crayfish, so they specially stipulated the size.

A two-pound lobster has to figure out a way to make money by himself, and he can't show his face. If it weren't for me, Lin Xiaobai would probably die here today, and he would never think of the film and television city for the rest of his life.

I'm not familiar with the structure of City A, and besides, I can't earn so much from singing. I only paid 500 yuan after singing more than ten songs, which is enough to go to the vegetable market to buy live ones. It can be seen that Wenqing is not so easy to cheat.I simply closed the scene, took off the wig and beard by the way, and went to meet Lin Xiaobai.

No wonder this guy hugged my thigh to death today, it turns out that he also knows that the task is difficult.Seeing me was like seeing a relative, he hugged me when he came up: "Brother Lin, my task is so difficult."

I was about to hit him on the head, but his hand reached into my pocket, and I didn't know what he put in it. I pinched it with my hand, and it was hard, like a piece of money, a hundred-yuan bill.

While pretending to cry, he told me in a low voice: "My fans gave it to me, don't let the show crew find out, Brother Lin."

This guy is really mentally retarded, his mic is on his collar, even if he whispers in my ear, the program crew can still hear it.

Fortunately, Jian Ke didn't force him to death, and didn't confiscate the only 100 yuan. I knocked him on the head: "How did you come here?"

"Take the bus, fare evasion." He looked innocent.

It really deserves to be hacked to death.

Lin Xiaobai has a youthful look, clear eyes, and a heartless smile. He is really the enemy of Ji Luo's family and Zhou Lu. He doesn't care whether he is popular or not, but Zhou Lu doesn't want to let him go. A bunch of trolls are so dark, and the public opinion on the Internet is too easy to control. Some people commented on my Weibo in a strange way: "Stay away from Lin Juying, and be careful not to provoke a show."

Although Lin Xiaobai is a bit stupid, except for Lu Yan and I who never bother others, let alone Zhou Lu, who is on a mission together, Lu Yan and I are willing to help him. I don’t know why these people are so upset.Especially Zhou Lu, who had a mission with him, the blame was thrown on Lin Xiaobai's head. After all, he was a Gongdou-level figure from Huatian. Feeling infinitely guilty, he kept apologizing, there were faint tears in the corners of his eyes, and the fans added some more, "I didn't eat dinner after recording this episode, and I have been practicing basketball". From the beginning, the character is poor.

But without the camera, Zhou Lu has a different face. Lin Xiaobai was deceived by his acting skills after the recording of that episode, and even went to apologize to him and said that he should not lose his temper. He sat there, and three or four assistants helped him remove his makeup Changing clothes, like the queen mother, with her eyes upturned, she never glanced at Lin Xiaobai from the beginning to the end, let alone spoke.

This circle has always been like this, killing people and setting fire to gold belts, repairing bridges and repairing roads without corpses, whoever is popular has a reason.Now Lin Xiaobai’s Weibo is full of scolding, the only ones who are still insisting, except for some old fans for many years, are only me and Lu Yan CP fans.Lu Yan and I are deliberately keeping a distance from each other in the few episodes now, but we are helping Lin Xiaobai, so CP fans put forward a new theory, saying that Lu Yan, Lin Xiaobai and I are a family of three, it seems so pitiful , Eat meat from between the teeth.

In fact, in terms of musical achievements, the tallest among the six of us is Lin Xiaobai. He is a truly talented person. He was at the peak when he debuted. He sang the theme song for Hollywood cartoons at the age of 19. He is the youngest person to hold a concert in Vienna. He is also the only one so far. For a Chinese under the age of 30, if Ling Lanqiu hadn't died unexpectedly, he would definitely be a fairy now.Zhou Lu's fans have always been big-faced. In their mouths, the soundtrack of the Oscar's best animated film is nothing special. On the contrary, the Mandarin version of a small French cartoon that Zhou Lu got through their connections is a little better. Because of "artistic depth".

But things in this world are always like this, time is fate, there is no shortage of geniuses in this circle, Jian Ke himself knows Lin Xiaobai's talent, but he doesn't make a move, Ye Xiao doesn't make a move, Pei Dongyu would rather run to Mongolia to find new people than Lin Xiaobai had no choice but to delay making the move year after year. Fortunately, he himself was not very smart, and he didn't worry about it. He was foolish and happy, and dragged me to buy him lobsters.

I looked at the time, it was almost lunch time, and there were a large group of fans around me, and I would be fouled if I did anything, so I could only call Lu Yan: "Where are you?"

"I'm in Luchang. There's a crew here filming a movie. I'm an extra. It costs a thousand dollars a piece. What's wrong?"

I lost again.

This person is really good at playing with the rules, and the program crew didn't dare to hate him, and he has really good contacts in the circle, and he was able to find a crew that was filming in this city, which is considered a talent.With how popular he is now, let alone one thousand, ten thousand ones would be begging him to take pictures.At the end of the year, Le Zijiao's new movie started to be filmed, and he and Qi Chu joined the group together. For a movie with two male leads, both of them will be paid tens of millions.

But losing to him this time is a good thing, because Lin Xiaobai's lobster has been secured.

"I asked Lin Xiaobai to find you or you come here." I glanced at Lin Xiaobai who was pretending to be obedient next to him: "The task given to him by the program team is a lobster, weighing two pounds."

Lu Yan laughed over there.

"My task is steak," he asked me, "Where are you, I'll pick you up."

"You still have a car?"

"rental."

He said he couldn’t swipe his face, but at the stop Lu Yan went to, the restaurant owner still chased after him to avoid the order. Lin Xiaobai escaped the crisis of elimination and ate the lobster with a smile: “I still thought that if the money is not enough, I will let Brother Lin go to the market Buy one and make it now."

I dragged his plate over: "It seems that you are full."

I was grabbing lobster with Lin Xiaobai when Lu Yan came back and put down a piece of fried chicken: "You have beer, too."

We're both subconsciously keeping our distance now, so conversations are often nuanced and awkward, kept to a minimum: "What about yours?"

"I've eaten." He was sitting across from me, wearing a black leather jacket, with a neat figure, his legs were so long that they had no place to put them, they could only be folded up, his every move was a model of "Su", everyone in the circle The brilliance created by the best team can make people unable to move their eyes away when sitting casually, with a smile on the corner of the mouth: "One of my tricks is to sit and eat steak."

I bought bottled beer with an iron cap. I never drink this kind of beer. I pried it open with Lin Xiaobai’s fork. One hand reached out and took the beer from my hand.

Lu Yan's fingers were slender, and he was good at playing the guitar. He took it and knocked it lightly on the corner of the table, and caught the foam with a napkin.

"Ice, let's drink it later."

"it is good."

Water mist condensed on the glass bottle, and his palm prints were clearly printed. The restaurant was very quiet, only the sound of Lin Xiaobai eating lobster, next to the window, the outside was directly on the road, so there were no fans watching, the sun was bright, and there was little dust in the air Zaifei, life in me seems to be one piece after another, as if the last second was the afternoon when I moved into the ten-strong villa and met Lu Yan, and the next second it was today.

The white horse passes through the gap, day and night.

Later, I saw this scene in a video made by a fan. It was a fire truck driving by outside. We turned our heads to look together.

It's really similar to divorced couples who come out to meet each other.

It's worth mentioning that Ji Luo's family began to have inexplicable hostility towards me. It's really interesting. When I really liked Lu Yan, he didn't pay attention to me. Now that we have stopped each other, he started to hate me instead.In the punishment part, the program team didn’t know how to calculate it, but it was calculated that I was the last to complete the task. In the punishment part, six groups of people drink drinks in order. The first is fruit juice, and then everyone can add something to it. Lu Sugar was added to the banquet, Xu Yi was honest and added a pinch of salt, Lin Xiaobai was afraid of hurting me, so he poured a little vinegar, leaving Zhou Lu and Ji Luo's house, Zhou Lu poured out a big ball of mustard without hesitation , Ji Luo's family drank it expressionlessly, jumped through the strange things on the table, selected chili oil, and poured it all in, the whole cup was almost like poison.

"I'll drink it." Lin Xiaobai was loyal: "Brother Lin is helping me."

"You can't drink instead..." the program team reminded.

Lu Yan stretched out his hand, and I realized what he was going to do. Just as I was about to hold his hand, he had already picked up the cup and drank it all.

Xu Yi was the closest, and quickly handed over the paper. Lin Xiaobai had always admired him and applauded wildly.The female directors gathered around, as well as his own assistant.

Lu Yan can be regarded as pampered. After drinking this cup, his brows were frowned. I quickly poured a glass of water for him to rinse his mouth. He patted his back and asked amidst the panic, "Are you okay?"

He shook his head and glanced at me, as if he wanted to say something, but I was squeezed out by the crowd, and I glanced at the camera position. Behind seven or eight cameramen, Jian Ke stood there quietly, also looking at me.

We just looked at each other quietly for a long time, but I don't know what he is thinking, and I don't want to know anymore.

There is a rumor that about ten years ago, Zhou Zixiang, one of Huatian's three kings and one queen, drank a glass of strong wine at the banquet of Huatian's boss, and his voice became hoarse for half a year. The concert was postponed infinitely. With a lazy jazz voice, he almost switched to pop rock at one point, but luckily he got better later on, and only then did he have the classic Drunk Dream Book that he sang with Nie Xingqiu in 99.

Jian Ke came from Huatian, so he must know the story.It's like he doesn't know how important the voice is to me.

I regard him as a star in the sky, and he regards me as mud on the soles of my feet.

I was going to pay tribute to him by singing Drunk Dream Book at the Masked Singer finals, but he arranged this punishment to deal with me. No, maybe he didn’t take me seriously at all. He just set up such a link for the effect of the show. It seems that my voice is not worth ruining at all.

Two days later in the Masked Singer Trifinals, I entered No.2. If I withdraw, No.4 will be arranged to make up.This show is not popular, and besides, no one knows who I am. If a second-rate singer in a second-rate show withdraws from the competition, there will be no disturbance at all.

The world will go on without anyone.

I learned my lesson, sent emails, text messages, and written letters in triplicate, withdrew from the program group, and went back to Beijing directly after sending them.

Ji Rongfu either works overtime or holds meetings every day. He is still at the company at [-] o'clock at night. He probably didn't expect that I would come back early, because I said that I have a very important game and will stay out for a few days.

I dragged my luggage and went straight to his office. Yang Yue didn't even have time to speak, so I opened the door and walked in. Ji Rongfu sat there alone, reading documents. I slammed the door, took off my coat, hooked his neck, and started kissing him.

I don't know what I want, I just know I've got a backlog of fire inside me, and I want to smash stuff, or tear up the song I just wrote, and I don't want to be in that fucking Masked Singer from the start, or a I haven't been in this circle since the beginning.

I know that only Ji Rongfu can properly settle my anger, because I was thinking of this name, so I didn't choose to fly directly to the grassland, but gritted my teeth and flew back to Beijing.

"What's wrong?" Ji Rongfu knew that I didn't want to do anything. After I calmed down, he started to touch my hair. I rushed all the way up, and my body was still cold. He saw the snow particles on my scarf: "It's snowing outside. Yet?"

"I don't know, I just want to kill people now."

Ji Rongfu laughed and untied the scarf for me: "Who are you angry with?"

"Myself."

If I have enough earth-shattering good works in the past seven years, instead of being depressed all the time, if I have carefully considered my expressiveness, if I can make a blockbuster on Masked Singer, instead of seeking stability all the way, just thinking about entering the final... …

Maybe Jian Ke wouldn't look down on me like this.

But these are irreparable, things have developed to this point, even if I sing well, so what if he takes a high look?I was never the brightest dark horse in his mind, he would only treat me as the second Lin Xiaobai.

When I thought of this, I started to grit my teeth again, rolled over from Ji Rongfu's lap, and found the score and guitar I hid in his study: "I want to write songs in your lounge."

"Okay. What do you want for dinner? Can you roast lamb chops?"

"Don't eat! I'm going to forget to eat and sleep! If I don't write a song that makes Jian Ke kneel down and call me Dad, I won't eat for the rest of my life!"

Ji Rongfu laughed helplessly, and hooked his fingers at me.

I walked over suspiciously, but he grabbed the neckline and pulled me over to kiss.

"I don't know if Jian Ke will call you Dad or not," he lazily kissed my neck, adding new marks to the old marks, with a dangerous smile hidden in his smile: "If you don't eat obediently, you may Call me daddy."