He is infinitely reborn in a loop

Chapter 36

15 years ago.

The inpatient department of the hospital is mostly quiet no matter day or night, but sometimes some noisy and unpleasant things happen.

Wu Yu lay on the snow-white hospital bed, staring at the infusion bag on the ceiling without saying a word.At this moment, he really wanted to ring the nurse's bell and invite these people who used the hospital as a vegetable market to go out.

"I don't usually see you. The child is sick and you come down?" It was his grandma's voice. After hearing it, he knew that it was his eccentric father who came.

Since that incident, he doesn't seem to have seen his father very much, maybe he can count it on one hand, except during the New Year and even the holidays.

"What's sick? He's sick with a ghost!" The man's voice was majestic, and Wu Yu could imagine the man's arrogance at the wine table, "My son, why don't I know? He just pretended to be sick Well, I was fighting and smoking at school before, and the school teachers found me here! Can he be sick because of his fuss?"

"You can't say that. After all, Xiaoyu is only 14 years old. He is still a child. How could he not be sick?" Grandma said angrily, "I was called to school today, and I didn't know that he stayed in the piano room without eating or drinking. After drinking it for three or four days, I fainted from hunger, and then I was sent to the hospital."

The man sneered and said, "Hunger strike? Wu Yu, are you immature? Even if you starve to death, I won't allow you to take the art test! What is the art test? Then it's just rubbish who can't learn well!"

"Who are you calling trash?" Wu Yu was furious.

"Look, isn't this kid full of energy when he talks back?" The man pointed at his face and mocked, "Wu Yu, don't think I don't know what you're thinking. What I regret most now is agreeing Your mother sent you to learn the piano, one or two only had that dead thing in their eyes, your mother played the piano to death, and you still have to go her old way!?"

Wu Yu sat up instantly and asked, "Don't you know how she died?"

"You are really here to pretend to be sick, right?" The man yelled, but avoided answering his question, "I tell you that you can get into these four middle schools, and you can get in if you don't! How much effort did I have to make it?" Take care of it, you can enter the key class as soon as you enter, and go abroad after two years of study, you are not satisfied!"

With a cold face, Wu Yu said word by word: "I want to read the middle school attached to the Academy."

"You have to fight against me, right?!" The man was not to be outdone, he raised his hand to hit him, but Wu Yu dodged it lightly.

"Are you going to beat my precious grandson? This is a hospital!" Grandma warned the man nervously, but perhaps because she had seen such scenes too often, she didn't dare to stop her.She leaned on the railing of the hospital bed tremblingly, and said anxiously: "I don't bring any medicine for heart disease. If you get sick, send me directly to the morgue!"

"Send, send, send! You can spoil him!"

"I spoiled him?" Grandma clapped the stick angrily, "You are promising, you married a goblin outside, and you have never taken care of children in these years, how dare you say that I spoiled him?"

Wu Yu lightly clenched his fists, pulled out the infusion tube, and ran out of the ward without looking back.

"Where are you going! If you run away, don't come back and call me to support you!"

"Xiao Yu, I haven't finished this drip yet..."

If running could leave all troubles behind, Wu Yu really wanted to keep running until he was old, and no one could force him to do something.Since childhood, he has had whatever he wanted.But since he was a child, he couldn't not want what he didn't want.

The so-called freedom is probably also a part of unfreedom.

He didn't know how long he ran, and he didn't know where he went. He finally remembered that he came to the hospital because he was hungry and fainted, and ran out halfway through the drip.After running for a while, he was a little tired.

A breeze passed through the hall, and Wu Yu followed the wind and went to an open rooftop.

There were white sheets drying on the roof, and a nice smell of daisy laundry detergent wafted in the air. He saw a small figure in the hazy and overwhelming whiteness.

The figure was sitting on the concrete fence, wearing the blue and white striped hospital gown issued by the hospital, and he should also be a patient living here.

The sky was a little dark, the sun was so gloomy, the wind was blowing the little boy's hair, his eyes seemed to be looking far away - there were no mountains or seas there, in fact, there was nothing but the endless sky.

Wu Yu stood there for a while, just looking at him.

His figure was really thin and small, but in Wu Yu's eyes, it slowly overlapped with another figure.Maybe it was because he stretched his feet outside, or maybe it was the loneliness that came from his back, which made Wu Yu's heart beat faster.

The little boy stretched out his hand, as if he wanted to grab something, so scared that Wu Yu ran over and hugged him by the waist.The two fell on the concrete floor together, kicking up a cloud of dust.

Wu Yu said anxiously: "What are you doing?! Do you know that this is dangerous!"

The little boy didn't answer, and slowly got up with his hands on the ground.Seeing Wu Yu's hand, he frowned slightly and took a step back unconsciously.

Wu Yu followed the other party's gaze, and there was a bloodstain on the back of the hand that had pulled out the needle, which was completely dry, and looked a little scary.

"I'll clean it up, don't be afraid." Wu Yu rubbed his hands behind his back, "Why are you here alone, where are your parents?"

The little boy still didn't speak, and just stared at Wu Yu dryly with big eyes.

Wu Yu shook his head helplessly, thinking that the little boy was afraid of him.He sat on the ground, leaning against the wall of the fence, looked up at the vast sky, and took a deep breath.

After a long time, the little boy walked up to Wu Yu's side and sat down too.

Wu Yu asked in surprise, "Aren't you afraid of me?"

The little boy looked at him sideways, and it took him a long time to hold back a word: "No."

Wu Yu smiled softly, thinking that this skinny little boy was a little cute.

He bent his legs, propped his elbows on his knees, rested his face on his palms, tilted his head and asked, "Are you also taken to the hospital?"

There was some doubt in the little boy's eyebrows.

"Disobedient children will be caught in the hospital for injections and medicine." Wu Yu pretended to be intimidated, and showed the pinhole on the back of his hand to the other party.

Unexpectedly, the little boy was still a little scared when he saw the blood just now, and he didn't hide at the moment, staring straight at the back of his hand.The little boy stretched out his small hand, took off the hemostatic sticker on the back of his hand, and stuck it on his hand.

Wu Yu froze for a moment, staring at the small, square white squares in his hand in a daze.

He murmured: "It's not bleeding anymore, don't post this for me."

The little boy shook his head and thought for a long time before saying, "My cat died."

Wu Yu didn't know, so he couldn't match the two sentences before and after.

"Death, what is it?" the little boy asked again.

Wu Yu saw that the little boy was asking seriously, but there was no curiosity in his eyes, which gave him a feeling - the little boy was just asking a question, similar to whether you have eaten or not, and he doesn't care whether the other party answers yes or not. The problem.

At that moment he had a lot of thoughts, it wasn't that he didn't understand the question, maybe no one understood it better than him, it's just that he didn't know how to answer the little boy.

Wu Yu said frankly, "I don't know."

The little boy shook his head rarely, and didn't speak for a long time.

There was a cool breeze blowing on the roof, and the noisy traffic from the city couldn't reach it. Such an isolated place made Wu Yu gradually relax his body. Leaning against the wall, he looked at the little boy from the side, and connected him back and forth. After thinking about it, I probably found a cause and effect.

The little boy has a cat at home. He must like it very much. Unfortunately, the life span of cats is shorter than that of humans, and they always have to leave sometimes.So his parents were afraid that he would be sad, so they made up some white lies to lie to him that the cat was only away temporarily.

"My mother died when I was very young." Wu Yu said suddenly, he rarely mentioned the past, and he rarely spoke out about his mother's death.

He said: "Grandma said she just went away and would come back one day. I always asked my mother when she would come back, and grandma said it would be soon, but I waited for many years, but she never came back."

The little boy looked at him calmly, and said, "This is a lie."

Wu Yu was a little surprised. He originally wanted to use this to comfort the little boy, but he didn't expect that the little boy's heart was like a mirror, and his stubborn eyes revealed to him that the other party didn't need comfort.

When Wu Yu was at a loss, the little boy asked, "Is your mother also killed?"

This question made Wu Yu even more at a loss.

He never thought that he would be at a loss when asked by a child.

"I, I don't know either." Wu Yu said sadly, "No one told me about my mother's death, although I overheard what the police said, they said she... committed suicide by jumping off a building."

"Is that so?" the little boy asked.

Wu Yumo didn't answer, he was actually very clear, very clear.He will never forget that night in his life. In the following years, he dreamed several times at midnight that the person he was closest to once fell from the sky and died in front of him with blood.

At this time, voices came from the entrance of the rooftop.

"Who's talking there?" An aunt wearing a nursing uniform opened the white sheet and saw them, "Hey, isn't this a child in bed 6? Your mother has been looking for you all afternoon, but she's so angry that you are here. Let's play!"

The little boy stood up reluctantly, and then took out a round chocolate ball from his pocket.He knelt down, stuffed the ball into Wu Yu's hand, leaned into Wu Yu's ear and said, "The answer is not important."

The answer is not important, what matters is that you are still alive.

The auntie of the nurse took the little boy away, and Wu Yu took apart the chocolate ball in his hand and stuffed it into his mouth, only to find that the ball was hard and bitter, so unpalatable that he was about to vomit.

The moonlight was like a shining lake, flowing in Wu Yu's hand. He held Wu Yuan's hand, rubbing his fingertips together.

He joked: "I was thinking at the time, is this person really a child? He looks like he is only seven or eight years old. Why can't I understand what he is saying? Is this child a disciple of an eminent monk? It's cloudy and foggy, pretending to be deep."

Unexpectedly, after saying this, Wu Yuan didn't respond at all.

Wu Yu leaned against Wu Yuan somewhat disappointed, and at the same time tugged at the corner of Wu Yuan's clothes to express his dissatisfaction.

"I seem to remember it." Wu Yuan said softly, "At that time I had a high fever and stayed in the hospital for half a year. I had a fever five or six times in half a year. I had to take medicine every day, so in order not to take medicine, I often Hide on the roof."

Wu Yu frowned: "Fire five or six times in half a year? No wonder I looked at you at that time and felt that you were dying. I secretly guessed if you were..."

Realizing that he had made a slip of the tongue, Wu Yu hurriedly shut up.

Wu Yuan didn't care, and said: "Those medicines are not all for reducing fever."

"Is the medicine your father took just now related to the previous one?" Wu Yu asked tentatively.

Before Wu Yuan could answer, there was a knock on the door behind him.

Wu Ma said, "Xiao Yuan, are you okay?"

After speaking, the door opened smoothly.Wu Ma's hazy voice also became clear: "Why don't you turn on the light, what are you guys talking about?"

pat.

The overhead lights were turned on.

Wu Yuan raised his hand to block it, and it took him a while to get used to it.He supported the edge of the bed and got up, walked towards Mama Wu, and the two sat down by the bed together.

"I remembered what happened when I was hospitalized when I was a child." Wu Yuan said expressionlessly.

He noticed that Wu Ma was really stunned, her dodging eyes were erratic, her mouth was half-opened, as if she was hesitating to say something.

"You really remember?" Wu Ma asked.

"We were still living in an old house at the time, and the hospital was far away from the alley. Dad carried me on his back for a long time before arriving. When he arrived, he immediately gave me an injection..."

Wu Yuanyue said that Wu Ma's face became more and more serious.He did recall some details, but he was still vague as to why he was hospitalized.Also, during the hospitalization period, Wu Xuan was not by his side, which was also very suspicious.

Wu Ma let out a long sigh: "We didn't hide it from you on purpose. Since you forgot what I wanted to say, you should have forgotten it. Why bring it up and be sad?"

Wu Yuan said, "But I want to know."

"When you were young, you didn't like to talk or cry. In the kindergarten, you played in the corner by yourself." Wu Ma took out a dilapidated medical record from her pocket, "Your father and I took you to see many doctors. , It is said that your child may be suffering from autism. But you are very smart. What words and poems I taught you since childhood, you can learn the whole book after teaching it once.

"So I don't believe what those doctors said at all. My child is just a bit bored. We will take you slowly, and one day you will be the same as a normal child.

"Later, Xiaoxuan grew up, and she was very noisy, always chasing after your ass. Although she caused me trouble all day long, you gradually became willing to talk. Until that day..."

Wu Ma stopped and observed Wu Yuan's state.

Wu Yuan flipped through the broken medical records. Since he was one year old, he has indeed seen many doctors. Every doctor's words crawl like octopus claws, and there is a long list of psychotropic drugs on the back of each page.

But through those words, he seemed to see his parents holding him back and forth in the hospital.Time has passed for too long, they may have forgotten, but some traces will always exist.

"I was playing peek-a-boo with Xiaoxuan that day, and the Pangpang at home was too noisy." Wu Yuan lowered his eyes, and continued slowly, "I was afraid that Pangpang would attract Xiaoxuan, so I tied it to the courtyard. But unexpectedly, Pangpang jumped up and down and hanged himself to death."

Wu Ma was very surprised: "Didn't Xiaoxuan tie it?!"

"It's me." Wu Yuan raised his hands and grabbed his head violently, "I was too scared at the time, so I told you that Wu Xuan did it."

"What?!" Mama Wu was stunned for a moment, like a thunderbolt from the blue sky, "At that time, I was so angry that Xiaoxuan was usually mischievous, but I didn't expect her to be like that. I was worried that she would not learn well when she grew up, so... ...What did I do back then!"

Wu Yu got up instantly, walked to Wu Yuan's side, and took his hand off.

Wu Yuan broke down and said, "Xiaoxuan should hate me."

"No, Teacher Wu." Wu Yu squatted down, keeping his gaze level with him, "This matter is not your fault, and no one would have thought of such a result."

Looking at Wu Yu's gentle eyes, he couldn't hold back anymore, and threw himself into Wu Yu's arms and began to cry.This action startled Mama Wu, but fortunately Wu Yu was no longer the ignorant child back then, so he shook his head at Mama Wu, reassuring Mama Wu not to worry.

Wu Yuan pressed her head into Wu Yu's chest, and said vaguely, "She's right, why should I forget about it after half a year of being ill..."

Wu Ma who was on the side looked more and more anxious, and cried: "Son, you can't say that. If you want to say that, you have to blame me and your father. Because you have been sick for the past six months, and you have been so sick. After that We always neglect Xiaoxuan, if she hates it, she should hate me."

Sad emotions surrounded them for a while, but Wu Yu knew that the years of resentment would not disintegrate because of guilt.The past of Wu Yuan and Wu Xuan is a heavy shackle, which makes it difficult for them to move forward, and they can only wait for time to unravel.

The cycle goes on and on and time is the most luxurious thing.

"Perhaps, Wu Xuan doesn't hate anyone." Wu Yu suddenly said, "Mr. Wu, think about it calmly, why did she create such a cycle? According to what she said, everyone in this cycle has no memory. Did she—"

"I don't want to kill me at all." Wu Yuan looked at Wu Yu with tears in his eyes.

"What are you talking about?" Mama Wu was a little surprised, "Xiaoyuan, tell mom the truth, did Xiaoxuan mention this to you? Your father and I are really worried about you when you came back suddenly tonight. I'm afraid that you will be the same as before, the human body really can't bear such a disease, child."

Wu Yuan woke up instantly, and waved his hand: "Mom, Xiaoxuan didn't tell me these things, I just remembered it myself. You go out first, Wu Yu and I have other things to talk about." Mom added a sentence under suspicious eyes, "Don't worry, I'm fine."

Helpless, Wu Ma could only leave the room first.

"You said something to Wu Xuan before," Wu Yu said while wiping the tears on Wu Yuan's face with a tissue, "This cycle not only traps us, but also traps herself. If Wu Xuan really To kill you, there is no need to create such a complicated cycle, and I don't think your sister is afraid of taking responsibility."

"Wu Yu, I have a solution." Wu Yuan suddenly grabbed the opponent's hand and held it with great care, "But I need your help."

Wu Yu didn't hesitate: "Say it."

The bangs on Wu Yuan's forehead were a little wet. The over-excited emotions just now made him uneasy at the moment, but Wu Yu's words did remind him, reminding him of the last cycle.

He was facing Wu Yu sideways, looking into his eyes, and said in a deep voice, "Don't rush to agree, this method is very dangerous."

"No matter how dangerous it is, as long as you say it." Wu Yu was very firm.

"I want you to die."