Feeding equation

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I don't like men.Although I am often not interested in women.

But I know I'm a normal man.I have a beautiful and gentle girlfriend, and even a beautiful child who has not yet been born.

I want my baby to be a girl.It is best to be an understanding, gentle and virtuous daughter like Hua Lin.She must be lively, cheerful and optimistic.From a young age, she wore a small skirt and played among the flowers. When she grew up, she fell in love with the boy she loved and married.I will be a good father, teach her to read and teach her to be a man.Protect her, love her.If possible, I want her to stay away from the underworld, from right and wrong, without having to bear the so-called responsibilities, and without paying attention to the cumbersome worldly affairs.

It must be a happy child...

Looking at Hua Lin's still flat belly under the dark light, some places in his heart felt moist and soft.

Women are really miraculous sometimes, just like now, it is really hard for me to imagine that Hua Lin's plain belly is now pregnant with a small life, a small life flowing with my blood.

When thinking this way, the eyes couldn't help showing a surprisingly gentle look, even when looking at Hua Lin's face, the expression became extremely soft.

I have always been very grateful to those who have favored me.I am a person who repays kindness and repays kindness in this life. It can also be said that this is a very short-sighted way of doing things, but I often enjoy it.

I walked over and stroked the face of Hua Lin, who was lying on the bed and sound asleep.She opened her eyes slightly in surprise because of my little movement.

It is often said that women during pregnancy are the most sensitive, and it is true.Back then, Hua Lin was someone who wouldn't be moved even by lightning, thunder, snow, and wind once he fell asleep.

"Haixin, you're back?" She looked at me with sleepy eyes for a long while before she realized who I was.Then he gave me a big smile.

Infected by her smile, I immediately gave her a brighter smile in return.This smile seemed to have completely forgotten even the insult he had just received from Wu Si.

"Didn't you go to Wu Shao's place? Why did you come back so late?" She turned her head and glanced at the alarm clock on the bedside table, and then turned to ask me.

I was a little guilty, but I still pretended to be calm and said, "There are always many things to be busy between men", and prevaricated.Fortunately, Hua Lin didn't ask, so I relaxed and lay down beside her.

"Hua Lin, do you want to get married?" I tried to find the topic we were discussing in the afternoon.With one hand supporting her head, she leaned sideways to look at Hua Lin, and with the other hand, she touched her belly, which was no different from usual.It's really hard to imagine that there is now my child inside.

"If you want, I will be happy to take responsibility for you."

"Hai Xi, our love should not be bound by responsibilities. Even if we don't get married, we can still give birth to him!" She taught me mercilessly.With a zeal that clings to love.I am speechless.But I know we don't have a lot of love.

Just like couples in many cases, our relationship is actually first based on dependence.

I was a little dazed, and when I heard her say these words, I suddenly had the illusion that I was going to lose her.

Maybe I was thinking too much.

Even if a woman shows a frank side emotionally, I am a man, and I have no doubtful rights at all.

So An Ran fell asleep, and by her side, he tried his best to remain as usual.

I am a person who goes with the flow, no matter for marriage or life.Hua Lin said not to get married, of course I will not force it.Besides, to be honest, I am actually not fully prepared for marriage now.

The outside wind was blowing in through the half-opened windows.So warm and cold.It's already summer, and even the wind that can be seen everywhere has a strong smell of plants.The moon in the sky is singing a melodious lullaby, and the whirling moonlight intersects freely with the light from the desk lamp in the house through the window screen.Then, tired drowsiness followed.

Hua Lin beside me was already fast asleep, beside me, he looked like a sleepy cat.I hugged her tenderly from behind, closed my eyes, and let the overwhelming sleepiness overwhelm me completely.

I am so tired.real.

……

Early the next morning, I was woken up by a loud phone ringing.

Hua Lin raised his head in my arms, and looked at me with some complaints.

I picked up the phone and looked at the caller number, frowned a little displeased, but still stood up and went to the bathroom to press the answer button.

Before I could say anything, a familiar and annoying voice came from the other end of the phone.

"Haixi, I remember that Boss Wu asked you to continue to take care of my daily life." Wu Zilun's voice came in a neutral tone, with a ray of fresh sunshine in the morning, breaking my sleep that could have improved to a higher level quality.

I glanced at the watch on my wrist, it was six past three.

He was urging.

"I'm hungry." A simple sentence, after seeing me and not speaking.

I thought he would sleep in the dark today because of jet lag.Unexpectedly, this early in the morning, he was urging people to die like a reincarnation.

It seemed that he knew that I would definitely lose my temper because of his phone call, so after he just said that he was hungry, he began to wait for my words with a guilty conscience.

But I am not him.Except for Wu Cheng and Wu Si, when I speak to anyone, I will not leave much room.

So annoyed, he used the phrase "If you are hungry, ask the servant to cook for you" to prevaricate.The implication is just to tell him not to bother me anymore.

But he seemed to have expected very early on that I would inevitably use the trick of shirking responsibility, so after Wu Cheng arranged for me to continue to take care of him, he made full use of this extremely beneficial right to him, saying: "I Get rid of that clumsy servant." In one sentence, I classified all my prevarications as a typical example of my irresponsibility.

"Haixin, come and cook for me, I'm so hungry!" He urged impatiently, as if everything he did was justified.

Like I was wrong.

He actually resigned the Filipino maid named Mary.That was last week, and I knew he was going back to China, so I went to the Home Economics Center to carefully select him.I spent a lot of money, but he resigned in a few words!

"Her cooking is really not to my liking. I'm hungry, and I want to eat your egg fried rice." Seeing that I didn't make a sound, he urged: "Haixi, come here quickly, or I will tell Boss Wu Well, let’s say you didn’t take good care of her!”

He is very good at these overt and covert methods.My teeth itch with hatred, and I can only let him manipulate me.

Actually, I'm not terribly afraid of him actually telling Moo-sung.

In the past, because of my father, I took orders from the Wu family.At that time, my father taught me how I was betrayed by the organization, how my identity as an undercover agent was exposed, and if he hadn't Wucheng decisively saved his life, I am afraid our whole family would never see the sun of tomorrow again.

In fact, if it wasn't for my father's constant reminders, why would I have bothered to obey their Wu family since I was a child?So much so that in the end my father died in an operation, and even after he died, he had to leave a will, asking me to swear that I would do my best to serve the samurai family.

I am also a person who knows how to be grateful.I know that Wu Cheng is kind to our Hai family, so I will naturally support him.It’s just that sometimes I’m in an environment that even I hate, I’m really powerless to do things, not to mention fighting wits with the prince of the Wu family and those who look down on our Hai family from the beginning to the end.

If there is a reason for me to stay in the Red Gang and fulfill my duties, apart from the biggest reason to protect Hai Qian and the second reason to be restricted by the Red Gang, it is because I don’t even know what I can do.

Yes.I am a very useless person.In his twenties, he seems to be a "decathlon", but he is actually doing nothing.I am genuinely ashamed of myself.

My expression sank, even though I was so unwilling, I still agreed to Wu Zilun and went over to make him a nondescript breakfast right away.

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