back from trouble

Chapter 112

As the cold wind blows into the neck, there is also a drizzling water line.

After a while, it started to rain.

Wei Shaoge looked up at the raindrops falling from the sky, and felt a little irritated. He never liked rainy days since he was a child. When it rained, it seemed to be a foretelling of something bad to happen, which made people upset.

Especially, the hand that was just held has already been loosened.

His eyes fell on the right wrist that was inserted into the pocket with a smile, which looked extraordinarily white in the dim night, as if covered with a layer of light.

It made him swallow.

"You are hungry?"

Laughing suddenly asked without looking back.

"A little bit, I didn't eat anything on the table just now." Wei Shaoge said without changing his face.

I heard a "hmm" laugh.

Wei Shaoge waited for a few seconds without hearing the following, looked up, and suddenly found that Xiaocheng was wearing a thin tight fleece sweater.The coat had apparently been forgotten in the compartment.

But he would not want the other party to go back to that occasion at all, and he himself was the same.

Wei Shaoge frowned slightly, he should have expected it long before he came, he didn't like it at all, the other party was clearly by his side, but he didn't pay attention to himself at all.

It's really unfair, he can't look away at all, and this person can talk and laugh with others.

While thinking so, he unbuttoned it two or three times, took off his coat, and put it directly on Xiaocheng's shoulders.

Smiling until his shoulders felt warm, and then he moved his arms, intending to return it.It just so happened that a car came by, Wei Shaoge got off first, paid the tip, and sat in the driver's seat.

After Xiao Cheng sat down on the co-pilot and fastened his seat belt, he slowly started the car.

He felt that he was in a surprisingly good state today, and he was very calm from the beginning to the end, which he himself found incredible.Even if he was extremely irritable, he perfectly controlled this emotion and didn't let it affect his behavior.

This is rare.

Wei Shaoge was thinking this while driving the car.

It was quiet in the carriage, unlike the way they came. Although the two of them didn't talk much, they would never be so quiet.

What does this seem to indicate?

Just like this weather.

It's bad.

He thought so, but because in this small space of the carriage, there were only the two of them, he felt a sense of joy.So much so that I don't worry about what the other party is going to say to him.

Probably because he is in such a good state now, he is sure that he can make a calm decision.

The streamers from the roadside store came rushing towards him, and he turned the steering wheel around a corner.

Xiaocheng has always been very rational and objective. He doesn't think the other party will be emotional, because one or two sentences can associate a lot.These were never his worries.

Wei Shaoge took a quick breath while thinking so.

Although this kind of memory confusion has a high chance of being restored in a short period of time, he doesn't want it to be now.

This is too fast.

He hasn't... Nothing started, it's about to end?

Sometimes he can't help but feel that he is actually taking advantage of the situation.If Xiaocheng remembered everything, he would never accept him without reservation, and he himself did not have the courage to face Xiaocheng calmly.

He doesn't want to admit that he is sick, and he doesn't want others to know that he is sick, especially unwilling. This "other person" is laughing.

Probably out of some only dignity.

When he realized that he was getting out of control, he made up his mind to break up.Not just because of the circumstances that were unavoidable at the time.The real reason was that he couldn't bear to expose his most unbearable side in front of the other party.

He has never been the best.

Whether it's academics, work, sports, or anything he handles, he can always be perfect.Everyone is close to him, loves him, and admires him, but he never takes it to heart.

He doesn't care.

But that's not to say he doesn't value them.

Even in the eyes of others, these things are easy to get, but in fact, he has devoted his energy and painstaking efforts to create them little by little.

It was the pretense he lived on...pretending to be like everyone else.

It's like clothes and shoes. Without these, it's like letting him stand naked in front of everyone.

He can't take it?

No, he can.

No matter how difficult it was, he still chose to bear it.Otherwise, two years ago, he would not have made the decision to receive treatment.Whether it is domestic doctors, friends, or mentors, they all advised him that there is no need to do this, and he is doing great now.

But he knew that wasn't the case at all.

All his perfection and beauty are in front of others.

And this person, like a paper knife, cut through layers of tape with ease.He was powerless to resist, and could only watch his ugliest things leak out little by little.

It's just hopeless.

And spilled filth defiles the other.

The other side is so clean.

And what about him?

At the stage when he was most out of control, he didn't know how dirty his hands were... Messy clips flashed by, of course, and finally settled everything, spent some money, or something else.He already knew what the world was like.From his mother's despair, from his father's ruthlessness, he learned how to survive.

He can clean it up like nothing ever happened.

But in fact?

He is not what the other party sees, thinks, or wants at all.

Not only that, he will kill him sooner or later.

Xiaocheng is so smart and transparent, every time in front of him, Wei Shaoge feels that his clean and beautiful shell is about to melt and evaporate.

and then?

He sneered.

I remembered the so-called treatment advice I got on the page before returning to China——

"...seeking help, under the acceptance, tolerance, and guidance of a special object, try to re-establish yourself..."

Ah!

It's ridiculous.

How could he tear off his last layer of protection in front of the other party?

How could he possibly reveal his truly filthy appearance?

Even if the whole world clearly sees how ugly he is, he must be beautiful in front of this person.

He didn't want Xiaocheng to think of it at all, because it would make Xiaocheng remember that he was not what he saw.

It's not normal, it's different from other people.

Maybe he'd like to know more...but he's not allowed to!

He must maintain what little dignity he has.

The car drove off the parking lot slowly.Wei Shaoge pulled out the key, turned around and said "Let's go", opened the door and got out of the car.Xiao Cheng also followed, with the other party's coat still on his shoulders.

It was still not too late. Cars drove over from the underground parking lot from time to time. They bypassed the headlights and walked to the entrance elevator at the corner.After entering the elevator, laughing, the phone rang, Jiang Guoze called, it was the clues to what happened before.

The two attacks were obviously aimed at Xiaocheng. Jiang Guoze had already guessed in his heart, and it turned out to be the case after investigation.Eisen offered millions of bonuses on Hong Kong Island, hoping to buy Xiaocheng's life, but unfortunately, after a few months, no one on Hong Kong Island dared to accept it.He had no choice but to contact the underground forces in city S, saying that he would pay for his life.However, as soon as the other party heard Xiaocheng's identity, he knew that the incident must be a serious case, and refused to take any risks. Eisen found a middleman to lobby several times and raised the price many times.This side finally let go, saying that the business was handed over to the subordinates, and he drew nine out of ten, so he turned a blind eye.And the people below are only interested in kidnapping and blackmailing, and they don't want white knives in and red knives out.

Jiang Guoze also spent a lot of money to know this, and suddenly became angry, and thought of seven or eight ways in his mind, which would definitely kill Eisen.Immediately, I called Xiaocheng. One was to remind him to be careful in the near future. I can wait for these two years. How can I not bear it for ten days and a half months?Eisen will definitely not let it go.

The other is to have a good discussion with him on how to get rid of Eisen.

Here he was in high spirits, but found that the other person was a little absent-minded, as if he was not in a high mood.Jiang Guoze couldn't help but pause, and asked him "what's the matter".

I heard the other party say, "I have something here, and it must be resolved now."

Jiang Guoze felt something was wrong when he heard his tone, so he said "oh", and asked him to contact him after solving the problem, and ended the call.

There was a "hmm" laugh, and when he hung up the phone, he had already put on his slippers.

Wei Shaoge came in one step earlier than him. He put his mobile phone on the shoe cabinet, thought for a while and simply turned it off, and then went upstairs.

He's very upset now.

During the period of selective amnesia, the doctor's explanation, his special feeling for Wei Shaoge, all conveyed a particularly important message to him - this person is extraordinary to you.

Otherwise, why do you remember everything but this one person?

But just now, he not only remembered Wei Shaoge, but also remembered that he had lived his whole life again.

I also remembered one thing that was deliberately dusted in the depths of my memory——

He is not as strong as he imagined.

He did a very weak thing.

He once attempted suicide.

In his previous life, before he passed away due to illness, there was a time when he attempted suicide many times.It was the fourth year after Wei Shaoge went abroad.

It is not simply trapped by love.

That was probably the most difficult time for him. The problem of sexual orientation has been tormenting him, coupled with the failure of his medical career, the business has repeatedly hit the wall, and the long-term pressure from his parents.He finally collapsed in a feeling of isolation and helplessness.

Finally, in a certain attempt, he pushed himself to the blurred line between life and death.

After waking up, he was in a trance, thankful, and then deeply felt the fear of death.

It was also at that time that he made up his mind not to let himself slide down like this step by step.But it was very difficult, he started too low, he didn't have family support, he didn't have a partner he could trust, everything was difficult.And he himself was repeatedly... troubled.

He couldn't accept that he had done such a weak thing.

So he spent a lot of money, flew abroad, and found a specialized medical institution for hypnosis, so that he could ignore his past weaknesses...and mistakes.

Be tempted by people who shouldn't be tempted.

He thought so then.

He felt he was wrong.

After that, he completely sealed this experience in the depths of his memory, and Wei Shaoge also blurred into an insignificant phantom—

Until they meet again.

how to say?

Under the guidance of fate?

This statement made him smile a little, but then, the smile dissipated again.

I see--

He barely recognized each other when he first met.

There is a lot of resistance to the closeness of the other party.

Remember everything, but forget him alone.

Because in the last life, he didn't want to remember it.

Laughing into a mess in my heart.

That's not him, the self in the previous life and the current self seem to be not the same self at all.

Even though he still remembered what a difficult situation it was, he couldn't imagine how he felt when he made... the decision.

Now he, no matter what, would not make the same choice.

Whether it's committing suicide... or using external force to dilute the influence of another person on oneself.

It turns out that everything has a price.

Just like how powerful he is now.

Xiaocheng adjusted his breathing, pushed open the door, "Shao Ge? I want to talk to you."