almond

Chapter 25

"it is good."

Zuo Rong's answer was almost blurted out, he understood the meaning of this sentence, he knew he had done it.

The person hiding in the shell finally poked his head out slowly and faced his love squarely.

The 18-year-old boy almost lost control, he wanted to kiss Kong Feicheng right now, but he had to control himself.

Only after experiencing the Big Bang, his sun could be born.Until then, he needs to be patient.

A new year, just like this, comes in surprises.Every day in this year will surely go smoothly.

Two people say goodbye in such a small superstition, the warmth of milk is enough to support a night of good dreams.

At the same time, Zuo Le was on the open-air balcony on the third floor, nestled in the small sofa and looking outside.

A countdown was beating on a building in the distance, but the distance was too far for her to hear the sound of celebration.It's like a hilarious pantomime that loses its comforting meaning.

"Old Wang, it's the fourth year. You let me go for four years. These four years, I've counted down the countdown by myself. It's hard. I don't lack friends at all. As long as I say hello, I will be there immediately." Someone is here. But for a minute, I just want to spend time with my lover." She muttered to herself, as if she was complaining, but also as if she was comforting herself.

Suddenly, she felt a sinking weight on her shoulders, and a blanket was thrown over her.

Zhu Qingyan listened behind him for an unknown amount of time, pressing against the first second of the new year, he said softly in Zuo Le's ear: "I'm here."

The boy's facial features are sharp, and he has developed an aura that is enough to fascinate women in the military camp.But the voice is surprisingly clean and soft, with a pure kindness that is untouched by the world.You can wear military uniforms to protect your home and country when you enter, and you can change into white shirts and sing softly when you retreat.

Not at all the same as my ideal type, immature, not wise, not funny.But there is a sincerity that no one else has, so a bunch of them are full, and they are all given to themselves.

Zuo Le smiled, stood up, opened his arms and said to him, "Come on, sister hug."

Zhu Qingyan was stunned for a second, then stepped forward and embraced her together with the blanket.

His arm was too strong, even a little trembling, how much he wanted to keep the person in his arms forever, and he could take her out to express his love at any time.

"Zhu Qingyan, do you want to strangle me to death?" Zuo Le was tightly bound by his arms, almost out of breath.

Sure enough, these young people are still unreliable, and they are not serious or serious.

"Ah, I'm sorry!" Zhu Qingyan let go of her hand in fright, but regretted it as soon as she let go.He wanted to hug her again but didn't dare, his hands just hung in the air without going up or down.

Zuo Le sat down again, patted the sofa next to him and said to him, "Sit down and chat."

It was only now that Zhu Qingyan felt as if she had been granted an amnesty, and her awkward hands finally settled down.

"Did Rongrong tell you about me?" Zuo Le poured him a cup of hot fruit tea.

"Say... I said it." Zhu Qingyan was not stupid and knew what she meant.

Zuo Le picked up his cup and said slowly: "Then you should know that there is someone in my heart."

"I know, but he's already dead." Zhu Qingyan suddenly felt a nameless evil fire surge up, making him brave enough to meet her eyes directly, but he was defeated in an instant.

Zuo Le chuckled, "Yes, I'm already dead, so I can't forget it. Otherwise, if you two compete fairly, maybe I will really choose you."

Sure enough, it was exactly as I thought, even if life was bad, death would only make people worry about it.But people are dead when they die, and the living cannot be dragged down forever.

"Zuo Le, I will love you more than him." The boy said his love words for the first time, his cheeks were flushed, but his eyes were extremely firm.

"But I might not fall in love with you." Zuo Le looked at him like this, his heart seemed to be soaked in lemon juice, every word was full of bitterness.

Zhu Qingyan took a deep breath and said softly, "I'll wait." Then he turned and went back to the guest room.

Zuo Le was alone on the balcony, blowing the wind, and it was not so cold with a blanket.

"Old Wang, look how popular I am. But my child is still so young, I'm really not a thing. Old Wang, what should I do? I almost forgot what you look like..."

She curled herself up, the warm liquid on her cheeks was blown by the cold wind as sharp as a knife blade, stabbing her heart with one knife.

She is a precocious child. She fell in love with the prettiest boy in the class when she was in junior high school.Although after three years, he has only reached the point of holding hands, but compared with most of his peers in China, he can be said to be an old-timer in love.

The first love that should never be forgotten is not so much in her heart. He got engaged a while ago, and she didn't feel uncomfortable at all, but was happy for him.

In high school, the hottest boys in the school all courted her, but she chose a tall, lanky boy in the next class.His appearance can only be described as handsome, but his science scores are always the first.At that time, only Zuo Le knew that he played Dota very well.

Later, the boy went to a professional team, so she broke up with her.The best memory between the two is the brief first kiss on the gaming chair.

Not long after that, she started getting into motorcycles, and the underage girl who lied about her age quickly attracted a lot of attention in the racing circuit.

She got acquainted with a bar owner, who was a rich man who was ten years older than her.He was obviously a prodigal son who lingered in the flowers, but suddenly he left behind all his little lovers and fell in love with this flirtatious and pure child.

But Zuo Le rejected him bluntly and called him "Uncle".

The man who was having fun couldn't get what he wanted, so he spoiled her like a younger sister to Bai Yueguang.

She was invited to hang out at the bar, and a 17-year-old girl is gorgeous enough to drive a male animal crazy.Every guy who tried to approach her got turned out by the boss, who realized it was a bad decision to bring this kid here, but she fell in love at first sight with the guitarist in the resident band at that time.

The two quickly fell in love, and after giving away the first time, Zuo Le knew that the other party had a fiancée in his hometown, and he wanted to regret the marriage and climb up his own high branch.

She slapped the man and didn't say anything else, which was a shame.

Later I heard that the man was fired, all ten fingers were chopped off, and he would never be able to play the guitar again in this life.

She said thank you to the bar owner for the first time that night, crying defenselessly in front of him.

Then he went to college, and met Wang Zuo right after the start of his sophomore year.

In a blink of an eye, it was the fifth year of my acquaintance with him.

Zuo Le never felt that he was such an innocent person, Wang Zuo was not her first love, her first kiss and even her first night had nothing to do with him, but that man could give her everything without any scruples, even leaving her life behind.

It's really hard to tell what happened in the world. I thought I was going to be a scumbag, but I defended myself like a jade for such a dead boyfriend, until Zhu Qingyan turned the boat over.

When Zuo Rong returned home, he subconsciously felt that something had happened here, and he should go to the third floor to see.Sure enough, as soon as he went upstairs, he saw Zuo Le still shivering in the sub-zero temperature.

He walked up, knelt down in front of her, saw those eyes that were obviously crying, raised his hand to touch her hair, and said very gently: "Go to sleep, okay?"

Zuo Le raised his head and looked at the person in front of him. Compared with before going out, his eyes were completely new. His eyes, which were always out of focus, had a slight light. He must have experienced a very pleasant experience, so he calmed down and said to him: "I My legs are numb, please carry me back."

"How about this, I'll call Zhu Qingyan over, he's probably not asleep yet." Zuo Rong saw through her little trick at once, and rubbed his chin jokingly.

Zuo Le stood up abruptly, and said quickly, "I'm all right now that you came here, you are really the reincarnation of Hua Tuo! I'm going to bed, good night!" After finishing speaking, he rushed into the bedroom.

Looking at the two used teacups on the small tea table, Zuo Rong slightly hooked the corners of his mouth, and said in his heart: "Zhu Qingyan, I'm about to succeed, you have to work hard!"

In the past year, some people met, some were separated, some were reunited, and some were lost.

So begins the new year, and at the end of the decade, there are many more stories in the making.If there is no fate, sooner or later we have to say goodbye.It is destined to fall in love after all.

After a heavy snowfall, the city of Beijing has changed.

The scenery in the Forbidden City is naturally unique, not to mention the red walls, yellow tiles, carved beams and painted pillars, and the faint fragrance floating in the inconspicuous corners, which aroused Luofu Yimeng.

During these 600 years, no matter whether you are a faint king or a wise king, you have spent several years in this beautiful prison.

Night after night, the emperor poured himself a drink.Sitting on the vastness of the world, but after all, the ground is a prison.The girl I brought back when I went south died after the sweet-scented osmanthus bloomed.I have made up my mind, and I am no match for Jiangshan Sheji.

It's just that she hasn't taken a look at the most abundant snow scene in the city.

The white jade steps are icy cold, and the beauty in the warm tent listens to the wind and snow and waits for dawn.

People say that there is a lot of cloudiness here, and there are many tourists during the day, but it is quiet at night.And leave it to the old friends who have been trapped by love for hundreds of years, to fulfill the promise of enjoying the snow scene together.

Zuo Rong likes snow, perhaps because of his personality, he always feels that he belongs to this freezing winter.

Walking slowly in the Forbidden City alone, admiring the scene which is very different from usual, someone recorded it with a short cannon, but he only wanted to see it.

On the coldest day of the year, Kong Feicheng returned to her parents' house.

Some things always have to be faced. If you want to have an excellent lover, you have to make up your mind to pull out the sharp blade on your body, so that you can hug him with confidence and prevent him from getting hurt.

Both grandma and grandpa passed away due to illness a few years ago, and other relatives also seldom move around. Only during the Spring Festival, the family of three will show up at grandpa's house together.

In the past few years abroad, there is no holiday for the Spring Festival, so there is no way to come back for the New Year. Thinking about it, it is true that I have not been back to this home for a long time.

It is just after 8 o'clock in the evening, and the lights in the house are rarely turned on.Kong Feicheng found his father who was practicing calligraphy in the study room. The last time he met, his grandfather couldn't get through to his phone, so he called him. When he went to school to send a message to him, he also met Zuo Rong.

Kong Wenxing raised his head abruptly when he heard the commotion, and the eyes of the exceptionally divided father and son met, one was surprised and the other was embarrassed.

"Feicheng, why are you back?" Professor Kong put down the brush.

"I want to talk to you about something, is it convenient?" Kong Feicheng said cautiously.For his parents and this family, he always looks forward to and fears.

"Of course it's convenient. Let's go to the living room. I'll make some tea." Kong Wenxing actually felt a lot of guilt about this child, and he tried to make his tone sound milder.

"Taste the Dahongpao sent by the previous students." Kong Wenxing is keen on the tea ceremony, and he has all the utensils. He skillfully brewed the tea and pushed a small teacup over.

It's a pity that Kong Feicheng didn't know how to taste tea. He only remembered that Zuo Rong had pasted a note on the green tea jar at home, telling him to drink as little as possible if he had a bad stomach.

"Very fragrant." This was his only feeling.

"Tell me, what's the matter?" Kong Wenxing put down his teacup and sat down.

Kong Feicheng typed up the draft for several days, but it was still difficult to speak when the matter came to an end.

"Dad, I met a very good person." He said the first sentence slowly.

"Isn't this a good thing? Why do you look unhappy?" Kong Wenxing understood what he meant at once. indifferent.

"He...is a man." Kong Feicheng clenched his teeth, his usual excellent expression management didn't work anymore, he couldn't squeeze out a smile, even a little distorted.

Kong Wenxing's pupils trembled for a moment, and his expression recovered immediately.He put down his teacup and said, "It's the 21st century, and neither your mother nor I are old-fashioned people. We have received so much higher education, so we can't even accept this. You don't have to worry about family problems."

"Dad, there is a copy of your diary in the suitcase on the bookshelf. I... accidentally saw it..." Kong Feicheng took a few deep breaths, and finally revealed the secret that had given him nightmares for more than ten years.

Kong Wenxing suddenly became flustered.He never thought that his son would see the diary that he hid and chatted with, and he was speechless for a while.

This silence lasted for a few minutes, and Professor Kong, who was always talking and laughing, finally opened his mouth with difficulty.

"You know, your mother and I are childhood sweethearts, we are the same family, and we were married early in the morning. But unfortunately, we never fell in love." He took a sip of tea and began to talk about the absurd things when he was young.

This was something Kong Feicheng never thought about. In his opinion, his parents loved each other very much at first, but the later discord was all because of that man.Unexpectedly, the reality turned out to be like this.

"I was 23 years old at that time, and I was studying in Cambridge, and I met the man in the diary. He was a young gentleman from a famous local family, and he was in the same class as me. We were very good friends. I thought we would be good friends for life, until one day, he Said 'I love you' to me in Chinese.

Before this, I never expected to fall in love with a blonde man in a foreign country, but it just happened.

That year was the best time of my life.For the first and last time I fell in love with someone.

The next year I graduated and returned to China. We traveled across the Eurasian continent and kept in touch through letters.Even with the distance and jet lag, I still love him as always.

But two months later he wrote that he was engaged to a Yorkshire lady.

Later, your mother and I got engaged and got married according to the instructions of the family.

The two of us married voluntarily. I have someone I will never forget, and she is obsessed with scientific research and has no intention of dating.So she allows me to go out to have fun, and I don't need her to be a husband and a child. We just take what we need and don't let the family gossip.

But the biggest mistake in this marriage was that we compromised and gave birth to you.Your mother returned to the research institute before confinement, and I was never ready to be a father.

Over the years, I just gave you everything I should learn and know, and I never fulfilled the obligation of discipline.I am kinder to any student than to you.

Because you are the product of my compromise with feudal ideology and the stain of my life. "

Kong Feicheng's lips trembled. He always knew that he was an unloved child, but he never expected that in the eyes of his parents, he would be so filthy.

Such straightforward disgust coming from his biological father was a fatal blow to anyone.

Kong Wenxing knew that he was cruel, but he continued, "A few years later, when I finally got over the shock of that relationship, I realized that I had done so many stupid things. You were so innocent, but you became my A victim of a failed life.

But it seems to be too late when you want to recover, you seem to resist me, even afraid of me.Sometimes I can't figure out who is more lonely, you or me. "

After talking about the past, he let out a long breath, as if he finally let out all the filth that had accumulated for more than 20 years.

"These words are not meant to hurt you, but to let you understand that our family has been built on the edge of a knife from the very beginning. It is not the British man who is wrong, and it is not you. It is wrong concepts and people's prejudices, yes Your mother and I, who obviously don't love each other but have compromised with reality.

I understand what your concerns are, our family is already like this and cannot be changed.But you must know that whether it is a marriage or a family, the greatest misfortune comes from lack of love.So when you meet the one you love, don't look forward and backward. "

After saying this, Kong Wenxing finally calmed down.

Kong Feicheng was still in great shock and couldn't recover for a long time.

He didn't expect that his parents had never loved each other, the nightmare all along was just a misunderstanding, and the father who was always strict with him wanted to restore the relationship.

For so many years, they have been tormenting each other.

For a moment, the father and son entered a state they had never seen before. From the previous hostility and indifference, to now there are signs of melting ice.

Kong Feicheng replayed his father's words back and forth in his mind several times before finally returning to reality.At this moment, he thanked this man a little. Although he owed him so many years, but now, he put aside all his worries for himself, so that he finally had the courage to take off his mask and face Zuo Rong with his true self.

"Dad, I hate you." He said this lightly.I've been suppressing it in my heart for more than twenty years, but I feel a little indifferent when I say it all at once.

Kong Wenxing knew about this a long time ago, but when he heard the child say it himself, his expression was still a little painful, so he lowered his head and said, "In this world, you have the most right to hate me."

Kong Feicheng didn't respond any more, but got up and walked towards the door, intending to leave.

However, before going out, he turned around suddenly, and said to his father who seemed to have suffered a heavy blow and hadn't recovered from his shock, "But it's not too late."

Kong Wenxing didn't understand, so he raised his head and met his unaverted eyes, "What?"

"You said you want to save it, it's not too late."

After Kong Feicheng said this, he walked out, and the moment he closed the door, he slightly raised the corners of his mouth.

After all these years, he finally smiled from the heart.

The author has something to say: Thank you, Lao Kong!