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Chapter 15

When Zhu Qingyan woke up, Zuo Le had already left, leaving a post-it note with "Thank you" on his forehead.

Is this considered taking advantage of others?This was the first thing that came to his mind.

But Zuo Le clearly knows who she is, and she is willing, so it shouldn't be counted...

Do you still have hope?

This kind of thought made him unable to bear a burst of ecstasy, but he felt a little lost when he touched the empty bed sheet next to him that still had a trace of warmth.

He picked up the mobile phone on the bedside table to check the time, but found that there were 85 missed calls on it, and 99+ unread messages on WeChat, but the silence all night made him ignorant of all this.

The last call was from Zuo Rong 10 minutes ago. He couldn't help but shivered when he saw the name. How should he explain to this big sister-controlled boss that he slept with his sister...

When he was considering whether to go to Jing to plead guilty, Zuo Rong's urging call came again.

He hesitated for a moment, but picked it up anyway.Forget it, if I can hide it for a while, I will find a reason to turn it over.

It's time to test your acting skills!

"Hey, Zuo Rong, I just woke up, what's the matter?" He pretended to yawn after he finished speaking.

"Where are you? We searched for you all night, and you were also kidnapped?" Zuo Rong remembered his own experience, and couldn't help feeling a little anxious.

"No, no, I was just a little tired last night. I stayed in a hotel near the bar for the night. I didn't hear anything when my phone was muted. I just woke up. The brothers are worried about me, really I'm sorry!" Zhu Qingyan found that her hands were trembling slightly, and she really wasn't lying.

"Okay, come back soon, there's still class in the afternoon." Zuo Rong didn't bother with him, as long as he was fine.

Zhu Qingyan got dressed, put the post-it note into her wallet, and went back to school happily.

But Zuo Le was not so happy, originally planned well, Zhu Qingyan should be able to give up on him after this night, but he didn't expect that something unexpected happened, not only did he not get rid of him, but he even slept in bed.

She stood in front of the window smoking a cigarette, thinking of this, she felt like a beast.

And Zuo Rong, who knew nothing about these things, saw Zhu Qingyan, who wanted to be his brother-in-law, hurried back. He didn't know whether it was because he ran too fast or because of the cold weather. There was a hint of shame.

Throughout the class, Zhu Qingyan was out of his wits. Even Zhao Yangyang, who had no brains, could tell that something was wrong with him, but he didn't say anything when he asked him.The two roommates who shared the same bed also couldn't figure it out. Why did this kid stay out all night so stupid? Could it be that he... went out to whore?

Zuo Rong ignored him, took out his phone and glanced at it, then frowned.

In the early hours of this morning, he got stuck and posted a "Happy Birthday" Moments, with a photo of Zuo Le from a few years ago.It was taken when she was riding a motorcycle for the first time. She smiled so hard that her teeth could not see her eyes, but at the age of sixteen or seventeen, she still looked a little immature.

He clearly saw that there was a portrait of Camus in the likes.

The feeling of being out of control surged again, making it suffocating.

Zuo Rong has been unwilling to admit it, and he can't believe that he will be tempted by someone else, and that person is a man just like himself.

It all seemed absurd and frightened him.

There was no class after the first class in the afternoon. Zhao Yangyang proposed to go to the gymnasium and call Lu Renjie, and the four of them went to the T University next door to have a stroll, and try their cafeteria by the way, and the two agreed one after another.

However, the moment Zhao Yangyang stepped into the campus of T University, he regretted a little. He pouted and said, "We should go to R University opposite. There are fewer girls here than our school!"

But they all came here, and the other three didn't come here to see the beauties, but simply wanted to visit the friend school, so they dragged Zhao Yangyang to continue walking in.

The more he went, the colder Zhao's heart became. Sure enough, it was too difficult to have both beauty and wisdom.

It is late autumn now, and there is always a cool breeze coming in through the collar, but the trees around are in a warm color.

Zuo Rong immediately understood why Zuo Le always said, "I want to wear maple leaf-colored lipstick in autumn".Probably only this kind of color is worthy of the words "autumn spirit".

When they reached a small bridge, the four of them stopped.A lot of people gathered here, compared with other places, it was extraordinarily lively. It seemed that some people were sketching.

They also leaned over curiously to have a look, and saw that those people were holding the drawing board, their fingers were flying up and down, and they were recording the autumn with watercolors.

Zuo Rong stood behind them and watched quietly. He liked this kind of scene very much, it was quiet and not noisy.

Everyone is not good at decathlon, but the one thing that the old Zuo family is poor at is painting.Zuo Le and Zuo Rong both had the experience of being dissuaded from a Chinese painting interest class when they were young. Even a training institution that is entirely for profit has to admit that the two siblings really have no talent for painting.

Humans are always obsessed with what they lack, so Zuo Rong has always looked up to people who can draw since he was a child.The same was true of the senior who drew pictures for himself at that time. If it weren't for the fact that his pictures were beautiful, no matter how handsome he was, he wouldn't remember his name.

Thinking of this, he took a closer look at the person in front of him, the back became more and more familiar, and he always felt like that person...

"Senior Lu Li?" Zuo Rong called tentatively.

The man turned his head slowly, his eyes filled with a smile for an instant.He was very happy to see this elementary school boy who had been away for more than a year before him, "Zuo Rong?"

That's right, I'm not mistaken, it's the senior who painted back then.He is still so elegant, when you see him, you will feel that such a person is born for art.

Zuo Rong motioned him to continue painting, and he and his friends would continue to hang out.

So Lu Li didn't keep him, the two exchanged contact information, and made an appointment to go to the coffee shop for a chat after dinner.

The four continued to walk forward, and Zhao Yangyang asked him, "Rongrong, do you know that person?"

"Well, he's a senior in high school, I didn't expect such a coincidence." Zuo Rong stepped on the fallen leaves on the ground.

"He's really good-looking, even prettier than girls. Rongrong, were all your former friends at this level? Did I lower the average appearance in your circle of friends?" Zhao Yangyang was a little worried.

"He's not a friend, he's just an acquaintance. My friends are only the three of you. If you're average in appearance, um... I hope Qingyan can help you get promoted." Zuo Rong answered seriously.

Zhu Qingyan was so amused by his serious words that he held his stomach and laughed non-stop, which drew a short punch from Zhao Yangyang.

The canteen of T University is actually not bad, but all four of them feel that their own school is better.

Another thing that is different is that in such a school where the yang is prosperous and the yin is weak, Zuo Rong has attracted the attention of many boys as soon as he entered the bustling cafeteria.

"These men seem to want to eat Rongrong, look at it, how scary, this is the legendary gay, right?" Lu Renjie trembled against the gazes from all around, with a hint of disgust in his tone.

Zuo Rong was irritated by his "gay".

Gay likes men, right? Does my thinking about Kong Feicheng count as liking?If so, then...you are also gay?

But it seems that I don't have any different feelings towards other men, does this mean I like it?If so, can Lu Renjie and the others accept it?

Looking at the three hard-won friends in front of him, he didn't dare to think about it anymore.

After dinner, the other three went back to school directly, while Zuo Rong made a phone call with Lu Li and went to the coffee shop he mentioned.

The store is sparsely populated, and the exorbitant prices put many people off, but it's just a good place for chatting.

When he arrived, Lu Li was already sitting there. He saw someone smile, stood up and said, "I don't know what you like to drink, so I didn't make up my own mind." Then he turned to greet the waiter and said, "Waiter, please trouble me. place an order."

The two sat down facing each other, and Zuo Rong ordered a cup of Mandheling.

"I've already guessed that you will come to Beijing, are you also studying at T University?" Lu Li's smile was warm, like the latte in front of him, the bitterness of the coffee was diluted by a large amount of milk, leaving only a faint aroma .

Zuo Rong took a sip of his coffee and said, "I'm in P University next door."

"That's a pity, otherwise I could be your senior again. I read reports that you passed the provincial No. 2 exam. Is that because you are studying finance?" Lu Li also made a judgment as a matter of course.

"No, I'm in the School of Psychology." Every time I couldn't avoid the topic of major.

Lu Liduan paused with his coffee hand, then smiled and said, "Well, liking is the most important thing, the best is not necessarily suitable, and it may not be what you want. I appreciate your quality, and you will never follow the crowd."

Zuo Rong was a little surprised, because few people would say that.He really won't follow the crowd, because Zuo Le has always been his follower, and she happens to be a maverick.

Is such a self special?

Seeing that he was distracted, Lu Li immediately changed the subject, "Zuo Rong, you are so smart, you should be able to guess, I liked you back then."

Zuo Rong took a sip of coffee and almost choked it out. Although he had already guessed pretty well, it was still a little embarrassing to be said so plainly. It was not the same as a girl's confession after all.

"Well, I probably guessed it." He tried his best to make his voice sound calm.

"Haha, don't be afraid, I said I liked you, I don't like you anymore, don't worry." Lu Li narrowed his eyes with a smile, like some kind of small animal.

"I'm not afraid." But he did breathe a sigh of relief.

"Actually, I've known since I was a child that I like people of the same sex." Lu Li added.

Zuo Rong raised his eyes, this kind of frankness was beyond his expectation.

Lu Li hugged a pillow, and continued: "When I was young, my mother always dressed me up like a girl, and threw me to play with girls. I heard that it was because she always wanted a daughter, and I couldn't live up to it. a handle.

But I don't like to play with girls, they are always screaming, that kind of sound makes people's skin crawl, and they cry every now and then, which is annoying. "

His voice was calm, as if he wasn't talking about himself.

"I secretly ran to find boys to play with. They thought I was a girl when they saw me wearing a skirt, and I was a cute girl who didn't cry or make trouble. They all liked to play with me, and there were a few brave ones. Kissed my face secretly.

At that time, I was very happy, but I didn't understand what was going on.

Later, when I grew up, I started to learn to draw. At that time, I no longer wore skirts, and those boys stopped playing with me.So I live in front of those still lifes every day, and I can't stop one after another, otherwise my parents will be angry.

When I started drawing the human body, I started to feel that something was wrong. Looking at those naked statues, my body reacted a little bit.But not to the goddesses of love and beauty, but to those healthy and strong men whose clear muscle texture fascinates me.

I had a dream that night, and found myself dreaming the next morning.

I actually blasphemed Prometheus, really promising.I swear, that's what I thought at the time. "

Lu Li's tone seemed to be joking, and Zuo Rong couldn't help chuckling.

He continued: "At that time I was only 13 years old, the first day of junior high school, which happened to be the age when I first fell in love, but my body hadn't matured yet, and I was thin and thin, not as tall as the girls in my class.

But some boys develop early, and they are already tall at that time.The sports committee member in the class is like this. Even though he is still a child, the muscles on his arms have already begun to take shape, and there are obvious blue veins on his hands when they hang down.

That scene made me feel particularly sexy.Well, just like you are now. "

Lu Li pouted.

Zuo Rong looked down at his left hand which was resting on the armrest of the sofa. The veins on it were slightly protruding, showing the youthful vitality of this body.

"But I never had an urge for a particular person until I saw you at a show in my senior year of high school, and you were wearing a white shirt, playing the piano and singing on stage.

do you know?You are more moving than the music you play.

At that time, I really wanted to strip you naked on stage and admire your body.I can imagine that picture, your abs must be better than the touch of piano keys. "

When Lu Li said this, there was a smile in his eyes, and his innocent appearance was like that of a child in a choir.

But Zuo Rong swallowed, this scene made him smell a little dangerous.

"Too much talk, did it scare you? Then I drew that picture. Actually, I wanted to paint it nude as I thought, but I was afraid that you would report me for sexual harassment.

But I really didn't expect to have further development with you at that time. After all, the stars in the sky are good to see from a distance, but they are not beautiful when they are close.

It should be said that you let me understand clearly that I really like men.But I don't need your response, and at that time I can't tell if you like men too.

But seeing you this time, I think you have changed a bit. "

Lu Li put away his smile and looked over straight.

"Zuo Rong, you like men too, don't you?"

His voice was very calm, Zuo Rong's hands trembled unconsciously when he heard these words, and some coffee spilled out.But after a moment of panic, he was calm and even a little happy.The person opposite is obviously very suitable to answer some questions for himself.

"I'm not sure." He paused for a few seconds before saying.

Lu Li raised his eyebrows, obviously interested.

"Oh? So I read that right? Well, let me guess what it is. You meet a guy and you seem to be tempted, but you can't be sure if it's a real liking because you've never liked other guys ,is that so?"

He had to admit that he guessed right.

Zuo Rong told him about the kidnapping of himself and Kong Feicheng, and described to him the changes in himself after that incident, but cleverly hid Kong Feicheng's personal information.

"In other words, you suspect that you don't actually like him, but that you just had an illusion under that dangerous situation?"

Lu Li straightened his back and sat up straight, leaning his upper body forward, bringing the distance between the two of them closer.

"Actually, it's not difficult. Let me ask you, do you want to hug him?"

miss you.

"Want to kiss him?"

miss you.

"Want to sleep with him?"

This... is really not sure.

Zuo Rong listened to his questions and thought about the answers one by one in his head.

"Think about these questions carefully, and you don't need to tell me the answer. Suppose you are really a straight man, and all this is just your hallucination. Then if you imagine the scene of making out with him, there is a high probability that you will have physical discomfort. Do you have any? ?” Lu Li continued to ask.

"No." Zuo Rong was honest, "But I'm not sure about the answers to those questions you just asked."

Lu Li touched his chin and said, "That's it. Go to that person, look at him for three seconds, and think about these questions again. I believe you will find the answer."

The two of them chatted casually for a while, and they didn't leave until the coffee shop was about to close. Lu Li, who was planning to treat him, didn't refuse Zuo Rong AA's request.

Walking out the door, the late autumn night wind rushed over mercilessly.

Zuo Rong said sincerely, "We will keep in touch in the future."

"Okay. I won't tell anyone about you. I've been the best at keeping secrets since I was a child, and you're also the first person to know my sexual orientation." Lu Li turned his head and smiled at him in a huff. "And I don't have any feelings for you anymore. It's very safe and reliable. If you need anything, just call me. Let's go."

Looking at the back of the man leaving, Zuo Rong felt that he was like a beautiful glass product, which would reflect brilliant colors in the sunlight.But in such a dark night, he looked vulnerable.

On the way back to the dormitory, Zuo Rong's mind was full of Lu Li's questions, as well as Kong Feicheng.

For the first time, he felt that this person was very annoying. He obviously only saw him once a week, and he couldn't say anything, but he was so lingering, and he couldn't drive him away just like that.

Back in the dormitory, the three roommates had already washed up to watch dramas and play games.

Seeing Zhao Yangyang who was browsing Goddess Weibo, Zuo Rong suddenly thought of something, grabbed his shoulder and said, "The 1.5-meter senior you liked last time, how did you feel liking her? How do you feel about liking her?" Repeat."

Looking at Zuo Rong, who was frowning and obviously abnormal, Zhao Yangyang thought for a long time, and said stammeringly: "I want to give her everything, I don't want to see her wronged, I don't want her to talk to others, I just want her Laughing all the time, only at me. What's wrong?"

Do you want to give everything to Kong Feicheng?Don't want to see him being wronged?Don't want him to talk to other people?Do you just want him to laugh all the time, only to yourself?

Zuo Rong thought about these issues in his heart, and felt that he didn't have any, so he probably didn't like it, right?This thought made him heave a sigh of relief, but he felt a little lost.

Looking at the thoughtful Zuo Rong, student Xiao Zhao was suddenly blessed.

"Rongrong, did you have an affair? Tell me! Did you meet a beautiful woman at T University?"

Hearing Zhao Yangyang's loud voice, the other two immediately dropped their earphones and rushed over, staring at Zuo Rong with scrutiny.